I Fear Out of 70 Common Fears

fear:
[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep & dark water
[ ] lakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] monsters under my bed
[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs if they were alive
[x] worms
[ ] high speeds
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
my total:9
if you get more than 30 I strongly recommend some counseling!
if you get more than 21 you’re paranoid.
if you get 11-20 then u are normal.
if you get 10 or less you’re fearless.

99th Days Anniversary...

Actually, this's counted by her.
She actually don't know shifting topics will hurts me indirectly,
I finally knew it.
And I finally told her how I feel.
Felt so relief now.
We'll discuss further when we meet face to face..

She bought me keychainsand a card...
The card stated "HAppy 99th Days Anniversary"..
When I saw it, I felt touched..
Felt so lovely..

Happy 99th Days Anniversary..

I Love You, Yan..

20 May..

Study, study, study.

Whole week studying. This week should be my first studying like mad week. In this year, for the 1st time, i studied for almost 12 hours for Bio and Chem's Paper in this week. I played the computer less than 5 hours in this week. Aww... Just hope that exam ends soon, and waiting for the coming of the Holiday! Woohoo~

19.May.

It had been a long time I didn't blog.
These 2 days I went to temple to study or whatsoever. ^^
Still got 3 more days we all can free ourselves from being tied up by exams.
But after 3 weeks, it's the time we gonna meet the Pit of Death,
Parents will kick us into it when they saw our results.
X_X

2 days slping on the floor,
without matress,
just with a small pillow,
not enough sleep,
is a common afair for me.
Now, my back aches because of sleeping on the floor.
Hope that she's here to massage me,
Here's such a nice environment for couples...
and no candles please, Joel.. X_o.

Tomorrow is Bio paper.
I didn't even give the books a glance.
Oh well, I guess I'd gave up of this exam.
I'll do even much better in the coming exams.

14 May...

LOVE
expect the least expected,
less expect the most expected..

Today was not a enjoyable or happy day.
It was so tiring to sit for exams for a long period.
3 more Science's subjects left,
5 more torturing days..
After that, holiday approaches!!!
It didn't plan anything in this coming holiday.
Hope that i will spend it wisely and meaningful...

She's doing her best to fulfill her promise of being a good gf...
I felt it...

Yawn~
After several hours of sleeping in school during EST paper,
I still felt sleepy and tired..
I think I will continue blogger later when I'm more awake.

P/S:To YB, I'll try my best to upload those pics that you requested for. XD.

~PictureS~

Cicak in the tub, swimming. Lol.

Uncomfortable study condition in my room. Hot! Temperature of 33 degree Celcius. "Melted".

Pictures of the children camp located at PJ.

Food at Club OUG's restoran. Cost me 8++. I'm broke again..

12/5.

Happy Mother's Day!!!!!

Hmm, exam really brings troubles and pressure to us.
Yesterday, she broke down because of the pressure she's having..
She felt better after tears,
And she felt even better after chatting with me.
It's pitiful to see her like this.
Just an exam, an exam can make people cry, broke down, or even causes death.
Why Malaysian take examination seriously?
I just don't understand.

Well, today i sat for my Add Maths paper.
Paper 2 is still ok for me, but paper 1 is far too hard for me.
In addition, my head ache this morning.
I can't even think of how to solve the questions.
Tomorrow, Sj paper.
I said to myself.
"I must pass the sj paper, if not, I'll fook myself."
Hmm, i'm wondering how can a guy fook himself with his own dxxk. Lmao~

10/5...

Today i went to temple for add maths revision. HanTing ( my primary school teacher taught us, me and ChiaWen) be our tutor for free! Thank to him. Give him a big applause!! *Claps* Lolx. Enjoy the process of learning although I'm quite lazy to think. I hope that my result will not lower than the intervention test. Overall percentage of 62. Sob.

Everyone was so hardworking and give their best to this exam. Especially my dear, she study like mad, and suffering gigantic pressure. Lolx. For me, exam doesn't matter much. I hate Malaysia's education system, which is exam-based study. Everything was determined by exam. Qualification of college, uni, and so on. Parents often ask about their results. When you get good result, they do nothing; When you get bad result, ho-ho, u will know what will happen soon. I tidied up my room. It looked clean now, not that messy. I'm allergic of dust. So i always sneeze when i was tidying my room.

Funny...

Why Malaysian Government insists on using English for math and science?

This is because the whole world uses the language as an information and/or technology language. How dangerous it will be if we try to use Bahasa, especially in school. See example below:-

Hardware = barangkeras

Software = baranglembut

Joystick = batang gembira

Plug and Play = cucuk dan main

Port = lubang

Server = pelayan

Client = pelanggan

Try to translate this:

ENGLISH:

That server gives a plug and play service to the client using either hardware or software joystick. The joystick goes into the port of the client.

Now in BAHASA:

Pelayan itu memberi pelanggannya layanan cucuk dan main dengan menggunakan batang gembira jenis keras atau lembut. Batang gembira itu akan dimasukkan ke dalam lubang pelanggan.

Now you know...WHY...

9/5..

Just now i chat with her..
I had been intoxicated by her voice..
I'm missing her so, so...... much....
She's really tired with examination...
There's nothing I can do to help her...
About 2-3 weeks we didn't have our usual long chat...
Her schedule had been fully booked...
Pressure from examination, making her unable to breathe well...
She can't even sleep well...
I really hope, exam nvr exist. Pressure nvr exist...
Then we'll have a lot of time being together just like usual...

Maybe this is a test for us,
to test the 'toughness' of our relationship,
I believe that after having a tough life or hardships,
we'll have sweet and easy life...

What a perfect bf should have..

• give her a big t-shirt of yours to sleep in. ( i wish i could)
• leave her cute text messages. ( i always do this)
• kiss her in front of your friends. (hmm, can i do it in school? sobs)
• tell her she looks beautiful. ( she was the most beautiful in my heart)
• look into her eyes when you talk to her. (I always do this)
• let her mess with your hair. ( let me think of it)
• just walk around with her. (she doesn't want to..)
• forgive her for her mistakes. ( I always do this too)
• look at her like she's the only girl you see. (hmm, maybe, maybe not)
• hold her hand when you're around your friends and in private. (always, but she doesn't like it much)
• let her fall asleep in your arms. ( i wish i got this chance)
• stay up all night with her when she's sick. ( i doesn't wish that she's ill.)
• watch her favorite movie with her. ( i wish i got this chance too)
• come up and grab her by the waist. (hmm, can i do it in school? sobs)

remember this:
• don't talk about other girls around her. If you love her, others shouldn't matter.
(of cuz, u noob)
• when she's sad, hang out with her. (she prefer alone...)
• let her know she's important. (I think she knew it)
• kiss her in the pouring rain. (you want us to get sick?)
• when you fall in love with her, tell her. (She's the one and the only one)
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before. (Just told)
• answer her phone calls no matter what.(i always do this)

10/5..

Blogging has become a trend among us. Many of my friends start to blog. Maybe they're influenced by someone, or maybe they are just follow the trend. Weekend approaching tomorrow. I wonder why people like weekends that much. For me, weekend is meaningful when you know how to spend your time wisely. For person who doesn't know how to spend their time wisely(like me), felt that weekends are boring for him/her. She's attending her Account tuition now. I just knew she got tuition on friday originally, because of her choir pratice session, she attend the class on Saturday instead of Friday. It had been a long time we didn't chat on phone. I accustomed to it now. I do really hope that tonight we can chat like last time, hour by hour...

I sat for Moral paper today. I found out that, moral is really not a must in exam, as luppy said, we are just memorizing the moral values, do we practise them? I'm not agree with him that moral doesn't exist. Moral does exist, just see how the person apply them in his/her daily life.

Sometimes, I'm quite envy of couples walking together to school's gate.. It's so sweet.. I wish this day will arrive soon, very soon.. I know she's trying hard now, but I really do hope that she will get out from her haunted space as soon as possible..

Incoming Message~~

Ding Ding~ Ding Ding~
My fone rang.
"1 new message recieved" appears on the LCD screen of my nokia 3220 phone.
The message was sent by her.
When i read it, my heart melted, and gav her a kiss thru sms..

Another Nice Song, But not Oldie.

Backstreet Boys - Helpless When She Smiles.


She keeps the secrets in her eyes
She wraps the truth inside her lies
Just when I can't take
what she's done to me
She comes to me
And leads me back to paradise

She's so hard to hold
But I can't let go

I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles

Maybe I'd fight it if I could
It hurts so bad, but feels so good
She opens up just like a rose to me
When she's close to me
Anything she asked me to, I would

Out of control
But I can't let go

I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles

When she looks at me
I get so weak

I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles

90's Oldie

I'm hearing 太傻-巫启贤. Oldies rock! Lolx.

Here's the lyric for this song.
痴痴地想了多少夜
我还是不了解
是什么
让我们今天
会分别
反正梦都是太匆匆
反正爱只能那么浓
心与感情让它粉碎
飘散在风中
只是为何当初你是不听所有
纷纷扰扰流言之中漫天风雨
你会选择了我
只是为何如今我们不顾一切
追求真爱坚持底又苦尽甘来
你会放弃了我
再说你也不会懂
心再痛你能做什么
不再将自己深锁
错了又错
守住你的承诺太傻
只怪自己被爱迷惑
说过的话已不重要
可是我从不曾忘掉
守住你的承诺太傻
只怪自己被爱迷惑
醉过的心那里去找
对着满满空虚回忆
怎么逃

7/5..

2day BI paper,
I gave up,
raise the white flag,
I don't know how to express and elaborate it..
Just full of craps,
I guessed I'll fail this paper..

今天的我有点怪怪的，
我觉得我们之间的距离好像越来越远了...
之前的快乐已变成了回忆，我怀念...
或许是她忙，或许是考试的原因，或许是她家人所给的压力...
我们经常谈电话的习惯已默默地消失了...
我每天说我不在意，我了解，
我的确了解，但我在意...
在意什么呢? 我实在不知道...

为了她，
我改变了很多，
学会了了解，学会了体谅，学会了自由...
但有一样东西我还学不会，
那就是如何把一个人的阴影给删除掉...
如何让她更加地爱我...

为了不添加她烦恼，压力，
我尽力去配合...
现在不是她不睬我，她不爱我，
只是我觉得，
我们好像一对少了些沟通的情侣...

她真的好忙，
忙到透不过气，
真希望我能帮她，
减轻她的压力，
让她不必那么烦...

我渴望能与她沙滩漫步，
一起看着那圆圆的月亮，
回想起我们所走过的路，
一路走来所遇到的困难，
一一克服，一一解决掉，
而且把我们连接在一起，
成一对互惜对方的情侣。

其实爱、恨往往只是一念之间‏..

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！
其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的。
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*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好， 这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！ 现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！

*听到了吗？明白了吗？
难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。
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如果每个人都
懒得讲话、
懒得倾听、
懒得制造惊喜、
懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，
又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？
所以请记住：
有活力的爱情，
是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！
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*有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了， 当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟， 他的男朋友很不高兴的说： 你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了， 我以後再也不会等你了！ 刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了， 她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了...

*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境； 女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！ 接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上， 此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。
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当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。
那并不代表你会选择他。
*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。
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*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发 觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！
他或许已经等你很久喽！
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*所以请记住，
喝酒不要超过六分醉，
吃饭不要超过七分饱，
爱一个人不要超过八分
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*如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，
而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

5/5...

I just played basketball at Jalan 29. It was a tiring sport. I felt sorry that i never reply her message when I'm playing. Sry, dear..

I watched Ah Long Pte Ltd in Wesley's house. We laughed like mad. It isn't too violent, and yet it's a comedy. A sissy always said, "Call yr mother to lay down and tomorrow she'll be pregnant".

2day i sat the exam for chinese paper. I slept after i finished the paper. Tomorrow is Malay paper. Havnt study komsas yet. Aiks. I don't have the ohm or the mood to study..

In a blink of an eye, it's May now. Time flies through faster than I thought. Time for me to revise and study. Hope i can fulfill my own words. I must possess strong determination!!! Gambateh...

HoTTemPeR's Phobia

HoTTemPeR's (me la) Phobia:

Dentophobia- Fear of dentists.
Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.

3/5

Based on Kx's post, Love is the nicest thing in this world...

I'm only agree a part of it.

Love might be the nicest thing in this world, but love might oso be the worst thing in this world.

The more the u love a person, the easier u will be hurted...

I had experienced it for several times..

Although i can see her everyday in school,

the feel i get is just like normal best friend,

maybe caused of her inconvenience..

Aiya, why should i think that much?

We are still a sweet couple..

Loving her whole-heartedly..

Love is everything, but everything is not love.

SMK Convent Bukit Nanas Choir

SMK CBN Choir. See it and you will know the answer of the question, " Why they always win the competition?"


SMK Convent Bukit Nanas Choir 07 Nationals
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmZFabi4RDs&feature=related]


SMKCBN - KL CHAMPION CHOIR 2007
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNUrM1NgFpQ&feature=related]

SMK Convent Bukit Nanas Choir 2008 - Stand By Me (Medley)
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIj-Vpps3Js]