Numb

I'm numb.

No feeling at all.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

12 Sept

Finally, first week of battling had passed.

I can only describe my situation just by one word.

"SHIT."

I wonder, how I gonna pass my exam.

All the best to myself and teachers who mark them.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

10 Sept

[Should I complain, or just accept it?]

[Be your own self, or suits my flavour?]

[It's so hard to decide.]

[I'm.... still ok... with it..]

Today's bc paper, isn't that hard. I still managed to finish it, and still got spare time for me to take a nap. Haha. Again, Shurong skip the tuition class again. What's he up to? Hmm, I think, the reason should be girls! Lol. Nothing interest happened today, and yet, I don't know why am I so emotional this few days. Loves to think alot. I mean, ALOT. Well, lonely gets well with me nowadays. Haha.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

9 September

Tomorrow is the first day of trial.
I'm not well-prepared,
so I dare not to wish for good results.
But, I'll try my best to score well.

Po ar,
remember don't get up at 3am and study o,
this is bad for your health de o..
If you are scare, just call me,
I will sayang you until you forget the pressure..
Miss you..

Friends,
don't study until 2 or 3am,
it's bad for yourselves too.

All the best.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

TOC

My school organized a trip to The Otomotif College(TOC). Although it isn't a renowned college, and doesn't have degree courses, it's still a nice place to study. Quite nice environment. It was funny today. A undergraduate walked towards ka and I."This place sucks man," he told ka. It's kinda absurd that a person pass by and told him the place he is studying sucks. O.o. I'm interested in studying the Audio course. It's a part time course, so maybe I will consider of studying it in my future.

[Off topic: I slept at 12.30am yesterday. When I woke up this morning, I'm totally blur. Took a bath quickly and went to school. Today doesn't like to talk much, and sweat alot. After the BC extra class, I'm totally in EMO state, felt so empty, so lonely. Lonely, this word, has become my friend. I don't hate it anymore, but I don't love it too. Maybe, a lonely person, is just a numb person, who doesn't have feelings, emotional, guess, this person, sounds like me nowadays. ]



Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

Hearts.

This is the Choc Heart specially made for her.

This is the surprise I gonna give her tomorrow.

Hope she will love it.

This heart represents my heart,

Eternal sweetness just for you.

I love You....

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

7 Sept

Today was incredibly excited.

Don't know why.

We just end our conversation happily.

We both miss our beloved very much.

I miss her, she miss me.

Haha.

Trial gonna start soon,

and yet,

I didn't prepare well.

So,

I wouldn't anticipate much of my results.

Life still goes on with shit result.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

6 Sept. 11.25pm.

It's raining the whole day.
It's so cold and the temperature remains at 20 to 22 degrees celcius.
Rain makes me think alot.
Makes me emo.
I wonder, when can I lay on the grassland, and watching the stars in the sky.
That should be a pleasant thing to do.
Missing someone intensely will make a person numb.
I'm the person.

She's different today.

Full of fear, misery.

Everyone has a haunted experiences.

Neither do she.

That's freaking her out.

All I can do, is stand aside, hope that she's alright.

What can I do?

Useless me.

Still, I regard it seriously.

Why can't I just pretend that what I also don't know?

Why?

It's hard to let go.

It's really hard.

[结论:我太重视她了。]

My English still sucks. Sigh.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

6 Sept

一个人，

独自在房里，

听着正在播出的歌，

静静的，无时无刻的，

在想念你。

已经好久没和你见面了。

我的心，依然还是你的。

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

I Miss You

[ It's drizzling out there, ]

[and drizzle makes me miss you...]

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

Untitled.

Today we thought teacher will come in to conduct at least one lesson. Ya, we got it right, but the teacher who come in isn't the one we want, indeed, the teacher who we wanted her to conduct a lesson didn't come to school. We got fad up and most of us planned to skip the school next week.

As usual, we studied together. The only way that I can revise in school is the moment she sat beside me. That time, I only can concentrate on my revision. This's a way to encourage me to revise in school. Maybe this is the only way.

Seems that many people lost their direction. CW is one of them. Love is a scary yet lovely monster. It will make you insane or it will make you as tame as a rabbit. Carrot! Lol.

Me? I like back to square one. Nowadays, I felt that I rode a time machine and went back to the past. My mind, lifestyle, and others seem to revert to the past. Untalkative, quiet. Sit in front of the computer desk,watching the immobile LCD screen. I wonder, when can I take a break, and go for vacation. I prefer nature. Nature harmonises my heart, calm my mind.

[X.X] out of idea. Signing out. [X.X]

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

九月

[九月的我]

仿佛是另一个人。

生活上都出现了很多问题。

最近的我，话题少了，活力也少了。

我仿佛回到过去，这几天的我，真的好像以前的我。

我一向都不戴面具，不伪装。

不知为何，那面具自己戴在我脸上了。

最近的我，好像独来独往，

不大喜欢参与。

[九月的学校]

对我而言，是一个陌生的地方。

从前热爱教书的老师，

现在已不懂飞到哪儿去了。

去学校，

好像在浪费时间，折磨自己。

今天，

我们整班男生竟然逃课。

为何？

正因篮球。

那浪费时间的讲座会，

耽误我们的体育节，真扫兴。

结果，我们连下课都没下，拿着那滑滑的篮球，开始打起来了。

[今天的她]

真的好忙，好忙。

又是同一句把我打败了，

“你以为我希望我自己酱忙啊？”

身为男友的我，

竟然不体谅她，

我真的太自私了。

三个字，

“对不起……”

明天不知要不要去学校。

真是“闲”啊~

2 Sept 2008

I went to school early in the morning. No one appears at the court until 7am, when GuoDung stepped into the court. Usually, the place where I gather are packed with people, but, today, it's just a few of us. Today, I finished All the Add Maths' Form 5 Chapter 2 exercise. It's so rare that I will take out a book and do it when I'm in the class. Not much teaching today, and yet just some exercises which are given by the teacher. We went home at 12.30 sharp because of Bulan Ramadhan ( hope the spelling isn't wrong). As usual, we walked towards the gate. We said goodbye and she went home while I go for my tuition classes.

We still got tiem to spare, so we decided to have our lunch at the Mamak. It has been a long time I didn't had my meal at Mamak.

I bought a notebook for her. Hope that she will study well with my small little notebook.

As usual, we went to Pasar Malam after tuition. But, the sky was dark and cloudy, and torrents of rain came down after we get into the car. It suited the atmosphere that was kinda sombre, sorrow, not like last time, full of laughter, jokes.

Again, I'm sorry for what I'd done to you.
And, I'm sorry for being emotional to her.

I thought, my tears gonna burst out of my eyes, but nothing comes out.
Cry is meaningless and useless. It wouldn't solve anything yet makes your eyes painful.
So, I apologized, faced it, and must not repeat the same mistake again.

Tomorrow, I ponteng school. Why? Because no one's gonna stay in the classroom due to a sudden test. I don't know why I'm not chosen. It should be a good thing because I can sleep late and wake up late tomorrow. It's 12am now, but my eyes and mind refuse to rest. Don't know why and don't wanna know. Fellow buddy, enjoy tomorrow. Hope the test will not bring you all down! Jia You!

Sowie

This post is specially written for HT.

[Sorry for the Ignorance. ]

[It's my fault.]

[But still, ]

[you are still a friend of mine. ]

[Sowie~~~~]

Don't angry so long, later will become old hastily.

1 Sep 2008

Today is the beginning of the September, when we sit for our trial exams. I havn't start to revise yet, just did a few add maths exercise during this 4-days holiday. Lol. I totally wasted my time. I went to two party, first is Kx's party, and second is Fs's Bro's wedding buffet. Y did I go to his buffet leh? The reason is simple. I '8'. Busybody. Haha. I was invited since last two weeks. I can't 'fong fei kei' de ma, so I decided to go to her party. Hmm, tomorrow, I must spend a few hours for revision, and study, if not, I surely will get red marks. Haha.

Gambateh le. Gambateh my fellow friends, gambateh myself, and gambateh to all who sit for the coming trial exam. Y[^^]Y