29Sept2008

Maybe she's right, thank you for waking me up.

I shouldn't put in too much expectation, or expect too much, we are taking SPM.

Maybe we will end very soon after SPM, or just be happily ever after.

I will not obssess anymore. I will not stubborn anymore.

I will learn to control my heart, not too fall too deep or get out of it.

I love you, yet don't love you.

Watching the clock, 11.59pm slowly approaching 12.00am,

the feeling is so nice. Just give me a new name, Emogeezmo. Lol. Suits the current me.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

27 Sept

She went to Genting.

Hope she's enjoying her trip.

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27 Sept

Today we went out with sc4 gang. We had a wondeful time over there, at MV. Hanging out with friends, is sure a pleasant thing to do. Window shopping without worries, without thinking of others thing. Just that their dada sempit oni. XD. Don't hit me wo.

今天，不知为何，和她有点距离感。因该是一个星期不能见到她吧。
她，矛盾，她，情绪化。
我，不加以理会，我，觉得，有些话，不能随便说。
说了出口，就收不回，严重的插进一个人的心。
那人的心，闷着闷着，有东西说，却说不出口。
想念一个人，原来需要那么多力气的。
现在，我，有点累了。
我们开始谈谈心里话，这或许是一个好的开始吧。
矛盾的我们，不知，下一步会做什么。。。

只希望，我不会失去恋爱的信心。。。
只希望，这段感情不会因矛盾而变质，恶化，最后枯萎。。。

我真的真的真的。。。很想念她。。。


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27 Sept

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26 Sept

Trial finished.

Don't know what happen.

Maybe she does mind.

But what can I do?

Just hope everything will return to normal.

Time to be hardworking.



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22 Sept

Nothing to blog about. These few days punya exams spoilt my mood, and makes me numb. Now, I just simply think and 'fat ngau dau'. I really don't like to study the subject that I don't like. But I know it's in the must-do list, and the SPM is approaching really fast. Sometimes I think, when will all this fucking school life ends. Got the brain to study, but not the interest to study. WTF. Scold me if you all want, because, I also don't know what to do now.




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Jay New Song

Jay New Song (Dao Xiang) so nice. Sui!!!

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下雨天（Best Song Ever)

歌曲：下雨天
歌手：南拳妈妈
专辑：南搞小孩
作曲：张杰
作词：张杰

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

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21 September

12.46am.
Ha..Ha..

20 Sept 2008

Being in the house for so long is making me emotional.
Staying up late during exams is making me exhausted.
Didn't exercise for two weeks is making me numb.
I guess, this's my life. Tuition, exams, and computer-ing.
I guess, this will lead me to an end very soon.
I guess, I'm emotional.
I guess, I seriously need to take a break from city-life.
I just wonder when can I get that chance to go for brisk-walking or jungle-trekking.
I miss the old days when we are not proceeding aimlessly.
I miss the old days which brings me good memories.
I miss the one who had been scolded by me yesterday.
I'm lazy.
I'm fucked off.
I'm lost in my life.
I'm just in close contact with lonely.
Gdnites and welcome a new bored day.

Signed off at 12.20am, waiting for her reply but I think the phone wouldn't rang.

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18 September

Today we sat for our history paper. It's tough and confusing. If the tips do not exist, I think, I will just fill in my name and class, and just drop my head onto the table and sleep like a lazy pig.

Walala, I think, I won't archieve well in history without tips. But, SPM has no tips. So, from now on, we gotta start studying before it's too late.

Today, we went to tuition as usual. Don't know why, I want to eat Spicy Yee Mee. So, we went to eat Yee Mee. Yay! While we were eating, an unexpected downpour came tremendously. Our food court has been flooded! Lol.

For the very first time, I scolded her. This is her first time being scolded by bf. Lol. Quite a high volume. She cried. Felt guilty yet happy. I don't know how to explain, and I don't want to explain. But, I guess, after tonight, we will be much more happier.

2moro is Est paper, yet, I still havn't sleep. I guess tomorrow I'm sure I wouldn't have enough energy to sit for the exam. Gambateh. Given in to the exams. Sigh.

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16 September

已考了好多天的试，考到我厌倦了，放弃了。

今天考的是，‘多块鱼’的数学。

说真的，我有点不明白，

为何，普通数学，与‘多块鱼’的数学差别那么大。

它已经吸完我的脑汁了。

我觉得，其他人也有同样的遭遇。

跟她单独相处的时候真开心。

虽然才过了那么1天又6个小时，

但我们想念对方想到要死了。

从昨天起，我们二人都渐渐珍惜单独相处的时候了。

日后，希望我们还有机会那么愉快的单独相处。

明天真是道德教育试卷。

我在努力的背那些Nilai，

你们也一样吧？

我们大家一起加油加油啊！

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15 Sept.

It is the second time she went to my home alone. Although the time we spent isn't that much, we do appreciate it. It's sweet. It's memorable. We do enjoy this intimate moment very much.

We watched wall.e. It's really a nice show. Taught us a lot of thing. When we are in love, nothing can separate us. If we rely too much on technology, we will be like those fatty bumbum, sitting on that mobile chair, just let the computer do all the rest. We must protect our mother earth, if not, our planet will just be a place that full of rubbish, and living things wouldn't survive on it. I can't concentrate much on the movie, because, you know la, Haha. This is our third time without others disturbing, only she and I. I wonder, when is the fourth time.

Being with her makes me feel comfortable, secure. I just don't understand, why someone wouldn't appreciate her. But guess, after a big round, everything back to square one. She and I will stay together till our fate ended.

...I Love You, Balon...

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13 Sept 11.45pm.

Current mood:

Dulan. Sien.

What's the point of promising people?

I don't get it.

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13 September.

I don't have mood to study at all. Don't know why, maybe it's the environment that isn't suitable to study. My room, is fking hot. I just don't understand, the weather changes drastically. Everyday hearing "Xia Yu Tian", I hope that it will rain soon enough, but the sky has answered me, "Xia Ni Pi Gu Yu". I can't stand the hot weather anymore. I can't study under such condition. It's making me sweating. Anyone who wanna go sauna can come to my house for a free sauna treatment. Time : 4pm-7pm. Anyone who interested can give me a call.

I'm totally not in the mood to study, sleep, eat, bathe, and even play. I wished I could switch on the air-cond. But, due to the expensiveness of the electricity, I decided not to switch it on.

It has been quite a while I didn't see her. I wonder, how do she looks like now. Although I'm trying hard to battle the loneliness, still, I lost. It's freaking awful to stay in house. There's nothing I can do, friends in my contact list didn't appear online. I wonder where they are. Some having tuition classes, some stay home studying, mostly all of them are busy handling the trial exams. Why am I not concern about trials? Why am I not aware of its outcome? Maybe, I faded up of exam. It's just like "so what?". Hais, I miss the old time, I miss the holidays.

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