A Nice Song.

爱太痛-吴克群

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
... 我不能睡 ...
我不能够 不能够不爱了

I predicted that if she and I are aparted, my predicted mood will just be the same like the lyrics.

"能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了..."

Is this statement true? I hope love doesn't need pain relievers.

I'm scare to figure it out, but I wanna know.

Any seniors out there can verify this statement?

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30 Oct

I think I 中暑 or I am fatigue. After playing basketball today, I felt unwell. Head was heavy, sweats all the time, the eyes are burning till now.

3 words to describe my situation.
HHT - Headache. Hot. Tired.

Equation of Long Hair:
Long Hair = Leng Lui + Attractive. XD

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29 Oct

Current mood: same as the song's lyrics, "你怎么舍得我难过".

I went to school today intentionally. I planned to revise with some our my friends over there. Surprisingly, there were still considered many of my classmate went to school. Studied add maths, chit-chat, and eat in the class. Awesome right? We seldom break the rules, but today we had broken the rules.

I saw JunYi at the BC Kasturi Seminar. She is still as tall as before. >< ( sorry for the ejek-ing ) I don't mean it. =]

Must study, must study..... Must not think of it, must not think of it.... Bang myself into the wall... Jk.

Stomach weirdo. Haha.

The hope in my heart shines brightly days ago, and now, it's dimmed.

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28 Oct

每次看古代片的结局，
都是同样的。
一定会有为爱付出的人，一定会有为爱而牺牲的人。
虽然一切都是演出来的，
都是假的，
为何我还会为了那一幕而感动到流泪？
或许，这叫做蠢吧。

Ever since when, I hate to study. Nono, it is not hatred, it's I don't have the study mood. ALthough SPM is approaching fast, others are burying their heads in the books right now, I still sitting in front of the computer desk, blogging. Lol.

I will try to force myself to study later. I mean FORCE, F=ma. Why Pyhsics' principle come out all of a sudden? Haha. I guess I'm crazy, I'm insane.

Here, I wanna share a photo which I was taken a few days ago.
I named it, "The Colourful Sky". Isn't it beautiful?

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25 Oct & 26 Oct Seminar Day 1 and Day 2

I needed to wake up early in the morning these two days. Why? I'm going for the Kasturi Seminar. This seminar is the finish boost for me before SPM. It was really tired to sit at there for approximately 4 hours a day. My buttock gonna be flatten soon.

Day 1
After the seminar had finished, CP n KY went to Time Square. Why do we go there? We were invited by her younger sister. My first impression towards her was, Wow, Why are you so small-built? Lol. If you see her through photos, she got long legs and kinda biggy head. I thought, she is kinda tall and hmm, you know. We expected she will give many negative critism, but, out of our expectation, she didn't say anything about me. Kinda surprising. Well, she brought one of her friends, a lad, which like KY very much. Lol. She got a small fans, and I got an adversary now. Sob. Day 1 isn't the happy day for me, kinda downed for the whole day. I'm numb. Lol.

Day 2
Just a normal weekend but I get to wake up early in the morning. Aww fuck! ><. Today was kinda moderate for me. Once I was going to give up, but now, I'm gaining back a little confidence. But, I will still stick to my own word. Once it's over, it's over. If things aren't better when school starts, adios amigo to us.

Today, she bought me a chocolate bar. Hmm, it has been a long time she didn't buy things for me, I mused. My mood is feeling better when I recieved that chocolate bar. Muacks.



Tomorrow is Deepavali. Any plans? Happy Deepavali to my Indian friends though I have a few of them. I thought I won't emo for a long time, but, I can't live without it just like I can't live without her. Emo is my life. My life is emo. Yay! Another statement from me.

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Doggy.

Filtered with CS3.
Doesn't look nice. =[
Long time didn't use CS3 d. Sob.

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勇气

今天，我又来讲故事了。

相信大家都有听过“勇气”这首歌吧？

以下就是那首歌的歌词。

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里 你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急 更害怕错过你

其实呢，我很认同它的歌词。
爱一个人真的需要勇气。
若你爱一个人，把你的一半的心放进去，付出一半，
你会觉得快乐吗？
你会觉得辛苦吗？

对我而言，
若要爱一个人，
就是要学会如何敢爱敢恨，
而不是学会把感情悬挂在空中, 半天吊。

或许，
你曾经心碎过，
不想让心再破碎多一次，
竟然如此，为何你还要自讨苦吃，接受这段感情？
要就爱，不要就不爱。
虽然，你有可能害怕会被伤害，
虽然，你可能面对很大的压力，
但，No Pain No Gain，
不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经深爱过。
爱，真的需要勇气。

谢谢！

No offense, and no idea what am I writing about. ><

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Stop emo-ing.
There's nothing for you to emo.

One must dare to love and dare to hate, not just love one or hate one for half. Hanging at the mid air will make you more suffering. After thinking for some time, I found out, this statement is correct. No elaboration, or explaination. Lol. Tired of explaining.

Life is not that easy or comfortable like what you think, what you want. Am I correct?

Yo, SPM almost approach, why are you not studying? Who gives it a fuck? Lol.

I must stop emo-ing and stop being that stubborn. ><

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22 Oct & 23 Oct (birthday wishes)

Happy Birthday to two of my friends,

Lim Poh Yi, and Wesley.

Wish you both all the best.

^^

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21 Oct

Tears running out of my eyes. Why am I crying? Am I frustrated? Am I giving too much hope? Am I contributing too much? Maybe yes, mayb not.

Tears stopped. Heart broken into pieces, scatterd on the floor.. It's just like Humpty Dumpty, I can't put them back together. Maybe this will make us feel better. I will miss you, I will still love you like what I did.

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20 Oct

Days after days, nights after nights, it's been quite a while I didn't see her. I wondered, why my heart isn't missing her at all. Fortunately, yesterday, I transferred the photos which were taken at MV last Friday. You know what? She's charming, cute. I can't move my sight out of her. I smiled. The missing feeling had finally came back to me. Another question pops out. Are we gonna end like this, in this situation? No. The answer is no. I won't let it ended like this. I must do something to 'rescue' this relationship. I didn't see her or manja her for days, even weeks. Days without her, is just like a garden without flowers. My mind is blanked, my heart feels empty. Completely empty.

When you love that person, you gonna make him or her happy. This is correct, but what if he or she hurts you always? Are you still gonna make him or her happy? When you are obsessed with her, you will do it, no matter how she treats you, how she appreciate it.

Getting emo isn't what I want. I can't control myself from getting emo. I just can't stop thinking when the darkness approaches. My heart was frozen solid, it is as fragile as glass. With a single touch, it will scatter. I just want to stop thinking of it. But how? I really can't figure it out.

I'm getting tired of studying. I hate to study those subjects which I don't like. I hate it. I mean it. Apparently, studying is a must-do task for a students, but this kind of student life isn't making me happy. Wake up at 6 early in the morning, take a short bath, then go to school. Teachers aren't conducting any lessons these few days. This is what I'm annoyed. Go to school unintentionally. What is school used for? It's a facility for student to study in it, but now, it's just like a playground. We hang out in the school and walking around to examine the cracks on the wall. Lol. Damn Sien.

Gdnites, all.

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17 Oct, Outing to MV. Pics.

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Random.

There is one sentence that I'm quite agree with it.

1.Love starts with smile, grows with a kiss and ends with tears. (extracted from friend's PM)

Love starts when a person fell in love. Both of them share their feelings, their thoughts together. After some times, they started to show some feeling towards each other. There's when love starts. When they saw each other, their hearts pumped vigorously. Sweet feelings came to their brain, and they both enjoyed the sweet feelings. Both of them are kinda shy when they both being together, especially when the moment they started to hold hands. I experienced it well. Haha. Thus, love starts with smile.

After some times, their relationship became firm and tight. Both of them sticked together like the Elephant Glue. They thought, there will be forever love. Their relationship had grown. They began to embrace each other, kiss each other, or even have sexual life. Love grows with a kiss.

But, after some times, they realised that their personalities didn't match well, problems existed. They argued. This caused the relationship to be loosen and might ended up breaking up. Both of them cried everyday after "combating". They might having cold wars too. After that, both of them realised that, it's time to end this torturing relationship. Thus, love ends with tears.

I don't know what am I typing. I just typed what I think, what I wanna to express. This is just some experiences which I encountered in my life. Some happen on me, some don't.

School starts 2moro. We gonna go to school for the god-damn-fucking-shit-lamo-boring PRA SPM test. What's the intention of having that "formal" test? I'm not sure. I just know, I hate to go to school if there's no lessons to be conducted. I prefer to stay at home and sleep until the sun sets. What can I do? I'm a student, and this is the student's life. Oh well, who cares? Do your best and just live on. Someday, somewhere, you will find your intention to live on.

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Reminisence.

My neighbour are having a BBQ party now. They are playign the guitar and singing together. I missed the old times, when we were chatting together, enjoy our time drinking, playing, singing, and so on. But now, everyone is preparing for the coming SPM. No one is free to held all these kind of parties, or gatherings. Really missed it. Damn. Lol. Perhaps everything will back to normal after SPM. Perhaps.

Still havn't full recover yet.

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17 Oct

决定……
我已作了决定。
不知是自私，还是帮到他我，

大家，都有少许的觉得，
或许没了她，我会比较开心，不会那么辛苦。
但，我不认同。
因为，我相信，有一天，我们一定会体谅大家，互相妥协。
但，最近真的有点累了，我真的很想做个霸王，做个暴君。

说真的，我每天，都为情而烦，大家都会问：“你不闲的咩？”
对我而言，爱情是排在第一的。
我一直都很想把朋友，把家庭，放在第一，
我曾经试过，
但最终还是战败了。

放下，我每天都说放下，
我真的放得下吗？
昨晚，与朋友谈天，
发现他所说的话，很有道理。
“说放下，当你看不到他的时候，当然可以放得下，
但，当你看到她的时候，放下这两个字，已消失的无影无踪了。”

为何，我感受不到任何感觉……
我真的变成木块了吗？我真的失去知觉了吗？
你能决定你要付出多少，但你却不能决定你要的回报的多少。
我一直都想，
她不够爱我吗？
为何我感觉不到他对我的爱，他对我的付出，他对我的体谅？
我好像一厢情愿。
我仿佛过着单身生活。
我再问自己，
他没付出吗？并不是。
他不爱我吗？也不是。
他没体谅我吗？也不是。

酱，为何，我还在埋怨？
为何，我不能知足？
为何，我一直觉得，我能做到他所需的东西，但他却不能？
为何？
我真的不想为这些芝麻绿豆的东西而烦……
但我的心，一直在想……不停地想……

我曾经问过自己，我是否是个好的男朋友？我是否适合拍拖？
我也曾经质疑她，是否是个好的女朋友？他是否适合拍拖吗？
答案，没有人懂得回答。

为何，我那么在意他？我那么在乎他？
因为我爱他？
但爱是这样的吗？
那爱是怎样的？
我不知道。

我……的心很复杂……
我……的心很痛……

（好久没那么情绪化了……感谢上帝赐给我这个机会……LOL）
（有东西问就问我吧，别去烦她。感谢你们的合作。）

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17 Oct

Today we went to school for our Physics' paper and Physics and EST PRA-SPM exam. It's based on the real format, but it isn't "real" enough, because 3 papers become 1. Other than these, we have no other intentions to go to school.

One can't change one. This statement is a fact, but why do I still fall for it? Why we must anticipate much? Why we must hope for something that will greatly dissappoint us at the end? Answer: This's life. Life, what is it by the way? I don't know how to answer it. Even my "counsellor" has gone mad. So, what's life? Live on to be emotional? Live on to be humilated or annoyed? Or even live on to be loved? Depends on how you think, what you think. I believed that one day, we will find the true answer. One day, really soon.

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14 Oct

最近看待事物的方法不同了，
或许是看开了，或许是在逃避，
我也不清楚。
每天都过着同样的日子，
每天都是同样的天气，
快令我透不过气来了。

昨天，与一位心地善良的人谈天，
谈起以前的事物，谈到现在的生活，
相比起来，
想起那种无忧无虑的生活，
想起那时天真及单纯的我，（呸！）
顿时间，想回到过去，
真快乐。

离考试越来越靠近了，
我的心依旧保持镇定的心，一点都不担心。
因为，我已厌倦了考试，厌倦了读书，
读埋那些我们不喜欢读的东西，
虽然不喜欢，但毕竟我们还是学生，无论如何都要读埋它。

感情方面，
无话可说，
也没东西埋怨，
以平常心看待，
就没事了。
学会不执著，不勉强他人。
我还是相信缘分，
有缘就在一起，没缘就分开。

现在快要中午了，
就要出发去补习了。
还有四天，补习就完了，
真开心！！！
但，与朋友相处的时间，就减少了。
在这三个月，庆幸有你们陪我去补习，
不然，我在家就要变成“活尸”了。

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14 Oct

Guess what I did in these few days? Bingox, I'm playing throughout the day. The weather was so hot, until my study mood vanished. I must pay a visit to those voodoos witches and ask them pray for the rain. Lol. I'm superstitious. Lame. I wonder, why my roof isn't transparent? I would love to view the star-full night when I'm laying on the bed before I felt asleep.

Everyone had just gone mad. Most of my friends become emo. Lol. Try to figure out who are them ba. Included me la. But, I don't wanna talk future about my emo.

Waiting for Jay's new album. Anticipating. Hope it will be released on date.

My last word before I offline, I Lub You. Bu! ><

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12 Oct

Days after days, nights after nights, my revision still remain at the same level. I'm still depending on my mood to study. No mood, no study, play. Ada mood, study, no play. As simple as abc. Just revised one of the Physics' topic, Light, but I still don't know what the hell is it talking about.

I think only a month left till SPM. So, take it easy, revise as much as you can, spend some time on relaxation, shopping, sleeping.

Got no topic to blog nowadays. Sien. Life is boring.

P/S: anywho who I didn't put in my blog mate list, please leave your blog's link at the cbox there. Thx.

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10/10 Happy Birthday to Dar.

Today is the "happiest' day in my life.
I wouldn't forget it.

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Trial's Results.

• Add Maths - 38 E
• EST - 81 A
• Sejarah - 61 B
• BM - 68 A
• Biology -60 B
• Chemistry - 58 B
• Physics -anticipating
• Moral - 63 B
• BI - 70 A
• BC - 67 A
• Maths -89 A
Total 508 4As. Sob!!!!
Average 63.5 B

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Dota 6.55

There are a hell lot of changes in this map. Lol.

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Koizora & 6 Oct

Koizora

I'm in tears for the third time after finishing the movie "Koizora". Aww... It's worth for the money. Altough at the beginning of the movie looks like a porn movie, which includes kinda lot of making love scene(not shown to us like porn la), laying on the bed, the guy kissed her, and the next scene skipped to next morning. Lol. Basically, the front part is kinda boring, and yet, horny(duh!), the rear part is getting interesting, and the ending, indeed, very touching. Can't imagine that I cried because of a movie. Lol. Believe me, who is sentimental should give it a try. It's really worthwhile to watch.

P/S:Chloe, if you wanna watch, just give me RM15, and I will buy for you, it's kinda far. Lol. No service charges included. See how good I treat you. =p

6 Oct

Today was the first day we went to school after Raya's holidays. It was totally a waste of time. All our anticipated subjects' teachers absent. We all like, "Oh F***. It's gonna be a F***ing sien day." As usual, we got some of our papers back. I wanna give my appreciation to the hardworking teachers for marking our papers hastily. Well, surprising, I scored well in BI paper, and I managed to score A2. Unexpectable. Guess blogging and tuition do help in my result. Pen. Moral paper's isn't that good. Average marks and 2 more marks to A2. So gek hei. Sien.

Joel, don't sad le. I'm here to console you. Hug for you. ><

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5 Oct

School reopens tomorrow. Yet, I still don't have the mood to study. The happiest thing in school is to meet my friends and my dardar. The saddest thing is we need to face the exam approaching, and those soxxx teacher. Lol. Guess, I'm influenced by HL. Gaga.

I'm sick. Fuck. I hate being a patient. Nothing I can do about intense sneezing early in the morning, and it ended up as a chronic disease. Aww.... Ha Chi!

I'm shy when I met Leng Lui, Lol. Leng Lui is those who has the potential to be my dream girl. Lol. I gonna miss both the Miss Greenies. ><

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Presents for her.

Cute Cute de Box.








Koizora!!!

Drew by me, using 2B pencil.








Coloured by me, using poster colour.

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3-4 Oct

I attended a wedding dinner in Tualang. It's located somewhere in Perak, a rural area, of course. It was my brother-in-law sister's wedding.

Karaoke. Swt.

Hmm, so many people. Lol.

Let's us welcome the bride and the bridegroom.

He Lian Zi. Apa tu? Btw, it's so appetising. Haha.

Nothing much to write about these two days. It's just an ordinary day. Signed off. Lol.

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1-2Oct

After 2 days staying at the 3rd Young Buddhist Gathering, I learnt a lot of things. I learnt to put things down. I learnt that what's is teamwork, I felt the warmth they all gave me.


I love you guys. Haha. Love the green shirt gal too. She looks like 15 but actually 20. She's kinda kawaii, I'm in love with her. Lol. Haha. Love MiaoMiao oso. She said she's introverted, but she makes me feel like she's not that kind of person. Lol.

An idea came into my mind when we gonna give our team a name, 我们，which means we. Then, other groups came out with some marvelous name. Then a sentence was made.
我们，（逗号）鸟人娘子爱戴罗家（ROJAK）眼镜。（句号）
The authorities was amazed by our cooperation and creativity. Lol.

At night, there was an activity, which involved birthday celebration and heart sharing. That day, a candle was provided to us. That activity should be touching, because other than our group, all were crying, emo-ing, sharing their heart. 'Our' group, guess what were we doing? We were playing with the wax!! Lol. We shared our heart happily, without a tear, and full of laughters. I missed that moment. I really hope that, I can be naive all the time, and the world wouldn't be that complicated. Do our best

Basically, we enjoyed our 2 days gathering, it was a rare occasion to have that many buddhist association gather in a hall. Although we don't know each other, we managed to cooperate like a team, like a company. Most of my friends said that, I'm even happier than before. I don't know why, but it was truth. Although my gay friend, SR wasn't with me that time, I still manage to find another gay friends, and girls' friends. Haha. After all, I shouldn't be that stubborn. I shouldn't ruin my life. I should appreciate it. But still, I refused to study!!!!! Kang Yi!!!! Lol.

Pics will be uploaded soon. Patience please. Fasten your selt belt. -.-''' Wait and see how's my green shirt girl looks like. Haha. ><

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