31/7

I envy those couples who can eat together during recess time...
Lol.
Current balance, rm2.00 out of rm250.00

Isn't it awesome? Lol.

To Myself.

(kinda imitated HL's blog)
CCP ar CCP,
there's only a month left for the trial exams ar,
when will u shang sheng ar?
I think I gonna fook myself high high,
and fall low low,
then I only will take a book and read it.

The most kacau thingy, is the damn computer.
It's hard to study aside the computer desk.
So, these few days, I did my studies, my homework,
downstair.
Wu, that's a good start. Lol

Teachers say that they gonna check our notes before or after the holiday, which I had forgetten.
I doubt their words,
but,
I'm doing the notes now. Lol.
Despite I'm lazy, I still able to finish up 2 chapters' short notes in 4 days time.
Wuhuhu.. Clap clap to the lazy me. (as compliment)

I'm sobbing for another thing,
that is most of my 'friends'(msn chatter), are getting lesser and lesser.
Well, I don't know what happen.
Maybe the approaching of exams, or maybe technical problems.
Hmm, web friends out there, any1 mind to keep me company by sms-ing wif me? Lol.
I think, I become insane, just like my beloved Chia Wen.

GG. Nights. Lost my direction.

28 July

Today was a nice day, a tiring yet a happy day. Thanks to Alice and her 'Cha Cha', she and I finally can go for an outing. They already talk about this since last Saturday.

Today, she was hyperactive. Don't know why, maybe she's excited, or mayb she's anxious, I mused.

Finally, school ended when the school's bell rang. We were so excited that we finally can spend our time together after school. This moment was rare due to some issues.

We went to Sunway Pyramid by 'Cha Cha's car. I was seeking for food when I'm on the car. I was damn hungry!! We had our lunch in Secret Recipe, a RM10 set. After that, we made for the ice-skating rink. We 4 people enjoyed our time over there. It was so much fun to skate on the rink! The shoe was incredibly tight. You must tighten it until a single finger also can't poke into it. Now, you can imagine how tight is it. We took some pics before we went into the rink.





Although this was the first time i went into the rink, i managed to balance myself and nearly fell. I think I'm good in balancing (perasan ^^). I brought her around the rink. Her sense of balancing was not as godo as mine, so she fell for 3 times.. When I saw she fell, my heart was like, DONG! ouch! That's hurts! Hmm, if i wasn't at there, she might fell more than 10 times ( perasan again ^^), I mused. It was hard to see her that happy. This happiness is different from the one I saw it in school. THis kind of happiness is like 'Hang Fook', for me la, of course. Helping her through the rink helped myself too. I can balanced myself in the rink and skated aroudn the rink and not depending on the wall. Hehe. Watching her fell and stood up again, she is a tough girl. Altough she said that she wanna quit, I know that her heart ain't gonna give up that early. So, we cheered her up and started all over again. As time passed, and the more we skated, fianlly, she managed to skate alone with my supervision. Claps for her!

Time flies like sand. At the blink of an eye, it's already 4.40pm. It's time to go home. Intimate moments end hastily while miserable moments end slowly. Sigh.. Before we went home, I bought a small little bottle, as known as S.O.S bottle, for certain purpose. I wrote sth on the wrist ticket and put it into the bottle.. Is it sweet? Lol. Perhaps it's sweet. We, who are 'Zhi Lian Kuang' took alot of picture in the car, and we learnt a lesson, which is taking photo aren't a simple errand to do. It's exhausting.

Sweetie us...

She showed me GHOST face..

I was like O.o

We enjoyed our day.. And our love grew alot. Hope, the next outing will arrive soon. I MISS YOU...

20$

Sometimes we just need to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.

In the room of 200,

he asked,

"Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said,

"I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked,

"Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied,

"What if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.

"Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.

No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.

We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE.

You are special- Don't EVER forget it.

"If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. "

And remember:

amateurs built the ark ..

professionals built the Titanic.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

26 July

Today i went to school for two reasons, first, that's obvious, of course is her. Second, all of my friends going cause of experiment, and I don't want to become a betrayer, ffk. Next time, if got any replacement, i swear i wil never go for it, except for some important occasions.

Around 4pm, I went for basketball at Jalan Perisa. I twisted my leg twice there. The very same leg which I sprained past few weeks. Although it's not incredibly hurts, it still hurts a little bit. Now, I staggered all day long. It hurts.... Ouch...

She went to her aunt house again.. Hmm, guess tonight I will be a lonely wolf.

Chia Wen is a lazy girl. I ask her out for several times, she still don't want to come out. [NgekNgek!] The first time i called her, she said, I wanna sleep!!! 'LOL' is written on My forehead. She is small built, so I can bully her easily, Haha.

I guess that's all for tonight. Kinda tired. Yawn~ Nights all..

25 July..

August approaches as trial exam is approaching soon. I still havnt study yet. The tuition classes are making me exhausted. Despite this, the most tiring is waiting for the bus and the time taken to travel back to OUG is too long. Everyday 7 or 8 pm only can reach home.

Can anyone tell me, am I greedy? Am I not grateful? Seriously, I need answers.

Yawn, it's kinda late, for me. It's already 10.38pm. 2moro, schooling as usual, replacement for Hari Raya. I hope that our BELOVED teachers will come into our class and start lecturing. If they did not come in, it's just a waste of time to go to school. I swear I will never go for replacement classes anymore if this time no teachers come into our class.

Gdnite to all of my readers. Lol.

23 July

2day SR was emo-ing for the whole day. Doesn't talk, doesn't make a single noise. Seems that he is in deep trouble. Oh well, nothing much to talk bout him. Haha.

As usual we went for our tuition after school. Nothing interesting happened, but I persuaded CW to buy 'SHIN' cup noodles, because it's incredibly cheap!! Just RM2.20. So cheap. Something weird happened on our beloved kikikatkat Add Maths' tutor. 2day, he didn't even talk those two words, 'absenties' and late-comers', it's not his style.

After tuition, we go for hair cut in Carrefour. We decided to go for the saloon. RM12. It's quite worthwhile and reasonable. I like the barber and my look. Haha~ Thx to you, you cute little barber. Lol. I like my hair style and wanna giv a surprise to my NvRen, because she keep on call me to cut my hair, and i promised her to cut it on Saturday. Hmm, wondering what's her reaction tomorrow.. Maybe no reaction, maybe full of excitement, who knows? Haha.. 2 more months to Trial Exam, and I still lepak-ing here. Play, play and play, eat,eat and eat, hais.... Tonight gotta sleep earlier to refill my gauge. It's a tiring month since I'd been introduced to a game called LRO, and addicted to a game, Warrior Orochi. Sigh.. When will I start to revise?

22 July

I had learned something through my observation and analysis in kasturi tuition centre. After explaining something to my dearest shurong and chia wen, I deduce that:

20 years ago, your boobs might be in front of yr rib cage; but, now, mayb your boobs, might be below your rib cage! Lol.

(Guess what's it?)

Just a joking material. Sry if i mencabuli hak asasi kamu. Lol.

I'm insane.... Sot sot dei d...

18 July.

Thanks to QQ, who sent me an email, I finally know what the hell happened on me.

有時候　不是對方不在乎你　而是你把對方看得太重...
Sometimes, it's not he/she who does not concern about you, it's you who take him/her over-serious.

I take things too serious. I think I need to learn how to take things easy to prevent myself from keep on suffering alone.

These are the other 2 word of wisdoms.

冷漠　有時候並不是無情　只是一種避免被傷害的工具 ...
Sometimes, stoniness isn't hardhearted, it's just a tool to prevent our self from getting hurted.
就算是 believe　中間也藏了一個 lie...
Although it's believe, it's still has a lie in between it.

[Translation isn't that good, apologize if got any mistake.]

17 July (11.30pm)

It's another meaningless day. Don't know why, these few days, I felt that I'm not myself anymore. I'd changed. I'd changed into a cold-blooded animal. Hardly see a smile on my face, hardly to feel my heart is delight. I'm so emo. Emo-less. Numb.

Going through this woe alone is hard. I wondered, why am I doing this? What's the purpose of me doing all of this. I can't figure it out. Happiness in my heart, has been fully drained by 'dracula'. I hope, someone will enlight me up, cheer me up soon. I still can't let it go. It's embedded in my heart, my brain, my soul. It's a trait, a characteristic.

The dark falls fast. In a blink of an eye, it's already nighttime. Don't have the mood to do anything, think anything. Wondering and daydreaming are what I did in house after I came back from tuition. Perhaps, one day, someone will guide me out of this woe though the someone was actually myself.

Nites to everyone. It's tired to live like this...

一段情

[纯粹是故事，并无其他意思]

三年前，
有一个女生和一个男生，
因一本书，
而让他们相识。

或许是缘分吧，
他们的感情一天比一天的深厚，
也让他们对对方产生了好感。
当时那男的已有了女友，
他四肢发达，但头脑简单，想法并不成熟，
他不知这会伤到他女友。

直到有一天，
那女友向她男友提出分手，
那时的他，
顿时间恍然大悟，
发现他的行为已无意间的伤害了两个人的心。
从那时起，那男的与那女的也不在联络了，把对方视为陌生人一样。

那一年，他和她都有各自的生活，
一点都没有思念的感觉。

直道那一天，他与她又再相逢了。
他们就读同一班，
感情也自然地变好了。

当时的他，
与她女友有了冲突，
感情一天比一天更差了。
他觉得她的一切事物都是谎话，
但他并没有因此而与她分手。

直到有一天，
他终于承受不了那承重的感情。
他，觉得好累好累，觉得一切都是假的，都是“有证无据”。
他，终于有勇气地向她提出分手了。

那时候的他，
不知何时又对那女的产生了好感。
他与她都没想过他们会在一起，
或许是缘分把他们撮合在一起。
他们一起度过了重重难关，
终于可以安稳地在一起了。

他说过，
他会珍惜这段情，
他做到了。
虽然有时他显得有点幼稚，有点霸道，有点自私，有点贪心，
但他只是想花多点时间与她在一起。
他知道，日后见面的机会肯定少之又少，
并不能像现在一样，
天天都能见到她。
他不想，如果，如果，他们的感情已没有了，
才来后悔。

为何他这么幼稚，霸道，自私，贪心呢？
因为，
他爱她…
他珍惜她…
他不想失去她…

15-7

It has been quite a while I didn't update my blog. After I started my intensive classes at kasturi, I'm so damn busy and tired. Everyday, lack of sleep, i went to school with my half-opened eyes. Today, it was quite a day, when we get to have intimate moments in class. Kinda love this feeling. I think, everyone hates to go to school nowadays. Those teachers, are damn bastard. They always don't come into our class, and we missed out our papers' marks and learning opportunity. Now, for me, i went to school just intented to see my friends and her, of course.
Most of my friends had been banned from using the computer. For example, my beloved Peng Siang. Life is getting boring without teaching and laughter.

I plan to give something to her as 6-months anniversary. Does anyone has suggestion? I plan to buy her a shirt, which is not valuable, yet memorable.

It's hard to live on when the petrol price hiked. It's like a chain reaction, when it hikes, everything's price hikes too. For me and chia wen, who love to eat very much, are headache of this woes. Hais, how can we live on with inflation?

6 July (1.15a.m.)

It's 1.15 a.m., I still havnt fall asleep. Tomorrow I will be having a undang course, which I need to wake up at 6++ for transportation.

Hmm, finally, I understand the feeling of sniffing one's neck. I always sniff her neck, and she's quite sensitive of it. Yesterday morning, I tried it, and I finally knew why was it so sensitive. I woke up at 8am and want to sms her to ask bout her 'tugas', but I realised that my maxis is expired. So i slept back. 9am, my phone rang. She said she want to come to my house. I'm stunned for awhile and giving her direction at the balconi. It was a BIG surprise that she gave me. I didn't think about it at all--to see her so early in the morning. We spent a lovely and sweet morning together in my room. ( Don't simply think ar, we are suci!!)

Intimate time is one of the major ingredients to make our love grow. So, after having imtimate time, our love sure get deeper and deeper.

Peng Siang came to my house for the magazine layout. Actually, I think that's an excuse for him to lepak around. (Haha, sorry if i had accused you~)

P/S: My leg still paining, and it aches when i take my every steps. Sob.........
I Love You, so I Care about You. I Hate You, because You Make Me Miss You So Muchie...

4 July..

This week was an exhausting week due to my first week of intensive classes. I can't imagine how i gonna get through this coming XX weeks of intensive classes. I hope I'll be alive after the intensive.

Today, i bought some phone-hanging strips for both of us. It a coupled-strips la, of course. They were cute. They were adorable. And they were expensive. =+.+= Though they were expensive, they're worthwhile. After that, we went tuition tirely.
After having my day spent in tuition and walking around with chick and ducks, some 'lucky' affair happened. I was distracted by a stupid big police bike chasing a big stupid bike. Then I accidentally stepped into the f**king 'longkang' cover with holes. Luckily, I managed to get my leg out from that f**king longkang. It was a deep wound, and it kept bleeding until i paid my visit to the nearby clinic. On the way to the clinic, I laughed madly. Why? Because, whenever I felt extremely pain, and I will laughed like a mad ass. The car was full of laughters and everyone was laughing with me without reasons. Lol. My leg was temporary numb when i get onto the car.




Blood Stain On My Green Pants.


The blood was still flowing out of my wound when I reached the clinic. Fortunately, there was only two patients, i need not to wait long. The doctor gave me an injection, and applied 'dressing' on my wound. Now, I'm disabled again. Sien.




P/S: Chia Wen was embarassed by a toy seller. He called, " Adik, adik!" and he flashed the toys in front of her to grab her attention. This was the second time she was having embarassing moment in Petaling Street. Please don't fool with her. If not, she will be very very sad. Bear in mind!! =P