29 September 2008

.Memories.

Today we went to Time Square to celebrate her birthday. At first we planned to go Cosmo World, but when we reached there, it stated that 12pm only operate. So, we go sing k lo. It was the first time I sing k with my gf, and some songs suit my voice. Wakaka. Satisfied after hearing my voice so nice.

10.30am- we reached TS.

11.00am- we went to Borders and started to read. Lol. After that, we decided to sing k, though I don't like to.

12.00pm- we had our dinner at Tong Lo Wan Restaurant. ( I belanja o.) She gave me a gift which she bought it at Genting Highlands. Kawaii nya.

Kawaii-nya....

Do we look cute? Haha.

1.00pm- We spent our time taking the Big Head Sticker photo. Our first time too. Haha. Although it was quite expensive (rm26), Kisiao, it was worthwhile. She cant keep these photos, so what for we took it for? Hmm. Nvm.

2.00pm-5.00pm- We had a great time in the karaoke box. We sang like mad. She sang "She Bu De" by Shun Zi, and guess what? I cried. Seriously, I cried. Why I cry? Refers to lyrics ba.

5.00pm-6.30pm- Sent her back. Thought a lot of things. Maybe this outing is our last time, because, I lost my confidence. Story ends.

T.T

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

29Sept2008

Maybe she's right, thank you for waking me up.

I shouldn't put in too much expectation, or expect too much, we are taking SPM.

Maybe we will end very soon after SPM, or just be happily ever after.

I will not obssess anymore. I will not stubborn anymore.

I will learn to control my heart, not too fall too deep or get out of it.

I love you, yet don't love you.

Watching the clock, 11.59pm slowly approaching 12.00am,

the feeling is so nice. Just give me a new name, Emogeezmo. Lol. Suits the current me.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

27 Sept

She went to Genting.

Hope she's enjoying her trip.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

27 Sept

Today we went out with sc4 gang. We had a wondeful time over there, at MV. Hanging out with friends, is sure a pleasant thing to do. Window shopping without worries, without thinking of others thing. Just that their dada sempit oni. XD. Don't hit me wo.

今天，不知为何，和她有点距离感。因该是一个星期不能见到她吧。
她，矛盾，她，情绪化。
我，不加以理会，我，觉得，有些话，不能随便说。
说了出口，就收不回，严重的插进一个人的心。
那人的心，闷着闷着，有东西说，却说不出口。
想念一个人，原来需要那么多力气的。
现在，我，有点累了。
我们开始谈谈心里话，这或许是一个好的开始吧。
矛盾的我们，不知，下一步会做什么。。。

只希望，我不会失去恋爱的信心。。。
只希望，这段感情不会因矛盾而变质，恶化，最后枯萎。。。

我真的真的真的。。。很想念她。。。


Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

27 Sept

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

26 Sept

Trial finished.

Don't know what happen.

Maybe she does mind.

But what can I do?

Just hope everything will return to normal.

Time to be hardworking.



Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

22 Sept

Nothing to blog about. These few days punya exams spoilt my mood, and makes me numb. Now, I just simply think and 'fat ngau dau'. I really don't like to study the subject that I don't like. But I know it's in the must-do list, and the SPM is approaching really fast. Sometimes I think, when will all this fucking school life ends. Got the brain to study, but not the interest to study. WTF. Scold me if you all want, because, I also don't know what to do now.




Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

Jay New Song

Jay New Song (Dao Xiang) so nice. Sui!!!

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

下雨天（Best Song Ever)

歌曲：下雨天
歌手：南拳妈妈
专辑：南搞小孩
作曲：张杰
作词：张杰

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

21 September

12.46am.
Ha..Ha..

20 Sept 2008

Being in the house for so long is making me emotional.
Staying up late during exams is making me exhausted.
Didn't exercise for two weeks is making me numb.
I guess, this's my life. Tuition, exams, and computer-ing.
I guess, this will lead me to an end very soon.
I guess, I'm emotional.
I guess, I seriously need to take a break from city-life.
I just wonder when can I get that chance to go for brisk-walking or jungle-trekking.
I miss the old days when we are not proceeding aimlessly.
I miss the old days which brings me good memories.
I miss the one who had been scolded by me yesterday.
I'm lazy.
I'm fucked off.
I'm lost in my life.
I'm just in close contact with lonely.
Gdnites and welcome a new bored day.

Signed off at 12.20am, waiting for her reply but I think the phone wouldn't rang.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

18 September

Today we sat for our history paper. It's tough and confusing. If the tips do not exist, I think, I will just fill in my name and class, and just drop my head onto the table and sleep like a lazy pig.

Walala, I think, I won't archieve well in history without tips. But, SPM has no tips. So, from now on, we gotta start studying before it's too late.

Today, we went to tuition as usual. Don't know why, I want to eat Spicy Yee Mee. So, we went to eat Yee Mee. Yay! While we were eating, an unexpected downpour came tremendously. Our food court has been flooded! Lol.

For the very first time, I scolded her. This is her first time being scolded by bf. Lol. Quite a high volume. She cried. Felt guilty yet happy. I don't know how to explain, and I don't want to explain. But, I guess, after tonight, we will be much more happier.

2moro is Est paper, yet, I still havn't sleep. I guess tomorrow I'm sure I wouldn't have enough energy to sit for the exam. Gambateh. Given in to the exams. Sigh.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

16 September

已考了好多天的试，考到我厌倦了，放弃了。

今天考的是，‘多块鱼’的数学。

说真的，我有点不明白，

为何，普通数学，与‘多块鱼’的数学差别那么大。

它已经吸完我的脑汁了。

我觉得，其他人也有同样的遭遇。

跟她单独相处的时候真开心。

虽然才过了那么1天又6个小时，

但我们想念对方想到要死了。

从昨天起，我们二人都渐渐珍惜单独相处的时候了。

日后，希望我们还有机会那么愉快的单独相处。

明天真是道德教育试卷。

我在努力的背那些Nilai，

你们也一样吧？

我们大家一起加油加油啊！

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

15 Sept.

It is the second time she went to my home alone. Although the time we spent isn't that much, we do appreciate it. It's sweet. It's memorable. We do enjoy this intimate moment very much.

We watched wall.e. It's really a nice show. Taught us a lot of thing. When we are in love, nothing can separate us. If we rely too much on technology, we will be like those fatty bumbum, sitting on that mobile chair, just let the computer do all the rest. We must protect our mother earth, if not, our planet will just be a place that full of rubbish, and living things wouldn't survive on it. I can't concentrate much on the movie, because, you know la, Haha. This is our third time without others disturbing, only she and I. I wonder, when is the fourth time.

Being with her makes me feel comfortable, secure. I just don't understand, why someone wouldn't appreciate her. But guess, after a big round, everything back to square one. She and I will stay together till our fate ended.

...I Love You, Balon...

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

13 Sept 11.45pm.

Current mood:

Dulan. Sien.

What's the point of promising people?

I don't get it.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

13 September.

I don't have mood to study at all. Don't know why, maybe it's the environment that isn't suitable to study. My room, is fking hot. I just don't understand, the weather changes drastically. Everyday hearing "Xia Yu Tian", I hope that it will rain soon enough, but the sky has answered me, "Xia Ni Pi Gu Yu". I can't stand the hot weather anymore. I can't study under such condition. It's making me sweating. Anyone who wanna go sauna can come to my house for a free sauna treatment. Time : 4pm-7pm. Anyone who interested can give me a call.

I'm totally not in the mood to study, sleep, eat, bathe, and even play. I wished I could switch on the air-cond. But, due to the expensiveness of the electricity, I decided not to switch it on.

It has been quite a while I didn't see her. I wonder, how do she looks like now. Although I'm trying hard to battle the loneliness, still, I lost. It's freaking awful to stay in house. There's nothing I can do, friends in my contact list didn't appear online. I wonder where they are. Some having tuition classes, some stay home studying, mostly all of them are busy handling the trial exams. Why am I not concern about trials? Why am I not aware of its outcome? Maybe, I faded up of exam. It's just like "so what?". Hais, I miss the old time, I miss the holidays.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

Numb

I'm numb.

No feeling at all.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

12 Sept

Finally, first week of battling had passed.

I can only describe my situation just by one word.

"SHIT."

I wonder, how I gonna pass my exam.

All the best to myself and teachers who mark them.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

10 Sept

[Should I complain, or just accept it?]

[Be your own self, or suits my flavour?]

[It's so hard to decide.]

[I'm.... still ok... with it..]

Today's bc paper, isn't that hard. I still managed to finish it, and still got spare time for me to take a nap. Haha. Again, Shurong skip the tuition class again. What's he up to? Hmm, I think, the reason should be girls! Lol. Nothing interest happened today, and yet, I don't know why am I so emotional this few days. Loves to think alot. I mean, ALOT. Well, lonely gets well with me nowadays. Haha.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

9 September

Tomorrow is the first day of trial.
I'm not well-prepared,
so I dare not to wish for good results.
But, I'll try my best to score well.

Po ar,
remember don't get up at 3am and study o,
this is bad for your health de o..
If you are scare, just call me,
I will sayang you until you forget the pressure..
Miss you..

Friends,
don't study until 2 or 3am,
it's bad for yourselves too.

All the best.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

TOC

My school organized a trip to The Otomotif College(TOC). Although it isn't a renowned college, and doesn't have degree courses, it's still a nice place to study. Quite nice environment. It was funny today. A undergraduate walked towards ka and I."This place sucks man," he told ka. It's kinda absurd that a person pass by and told him the place he is studying sucks. O.o. I'm interested in studying the Audio course. It's a part time course, so maybe I will consider of studying it in my future.

[Off topic: I slept at 12.30am yesterday. When I woke up this morning, I'm totally blur. Took a bath quickly and went to school. Today doesn't like to talk much, and sweat alot. After the BC extra class, I'm totally in EMO state, felt so empty, so lonely. Lonely, this word, has become my friend. I don't hate it anymore, but I don't love it too. Maybe, a lonely person, is just a numb person, who doesn't have feelings, emotional, guess, this person, sounds like me nowadays. ]



Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

Hearts.

This is the Choc Heart specially made for her.

This is the surprise I gonna give her tomorrow.

Hope she will love it.

This heart represents my heart,

Eternal sweetness just for you.

I love You....

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

7 Sept

Today was incredibly excited.

Don't know why.

We just end our conversation happily.

We both miss our beloved very much.

I miss her, she miss me.

Haha.

Trial gonna start soon,

and yet,

I didn't prepare well.

So,

I wouldn't anticipate much of my results.

Life still goes on with shit result.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

6 Sept. 11.25pm.

It's raining the whole day.
It's so cold and the temperature remains at 20 to 22 degrees celcius.
Rain makes me think alot.
Makes me emo.
I wonder, when can I lay on the grassland, and watching the stars in the sky.
That should be a pleasant thing to do.
Missing someone intensely will make a person numb.
I'm the person.

She's different today.

Full of fear, misery.

Everyone has a haunted experiences.

Neither do she.

That's freaking her out.

All I can do, is stand aside, hope that she's alright.

What can I do?

Useless me.

Still, I regard it seriously.

Why can't I just pretend that what I also don't know?

Why?

It's hard to let go.

It's really hard.

[结论:我太重视她了。]

My English still sucks. Sigh.

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

6 Sept

一个人，

独自在房里，

听着正在播出的歌，

静静的，无时无刻的，

在想念你。

已经好久没和你见面了。

我的心，依然还是你的。

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

I Miss You

[ It's drizzling out there, ]

[and drizzle makes me miss you...]

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

Untitled.

Today we thought teacher will come in to conduct at least one lesson. Ya, we got it right, but the teacher who come in isn't the one we want, indeed, the teacher who we wanted her to conduct a lesson didn't come to school. We got fad up and most of us planned to skip the school next week.

As usual, we studied together. The only way that I can revise in school is the moment she sat beside me. That time, I only can concentrate on my revision. This's a way to encourage me to revise in school. Maybe this is the only way.

Seems that many people lost their direction. CW is one of them. Love is a scary yet lovely monster. It will make you insane or it will make you as tame as a rabbit. Carrot! Lol.

Me? I like back to square one. Nowadays, I felt that I rode a time machine and went back to the past. My mind, lifestyle, and others seem to revert to the past. Untalkative, quiet. Sit in front of the computer desk,watching the immobile LCD screen. I wonder, when can I take a break, and go for vacation. I prefer nature. Nature harmonises my heart, calm my mind.

[X.X] out of idea. Signing out. [X.X]

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

九月

[九月的我]

仿佛是另一个人。

生活上都出现了很多问题。

最近的我，话题少了，活力也少了。

我仿佛回到过去，这几天的我，真的好像以前的我。

我一向都不戴面具，不伪装。

不知为何，那面具自己戴在我脸上了。

最近的我，好像独来独往，

不大喜欢参与。

[九月的学校]

对我而言，是一个陌生的地方。

从前热爱教书的老师，

现在已不懂飞到哪儿去了。

去学校，

好像在浪费时间，折磨自己。

今天，

我们整班男生竟然逃课。

为何？

正因篮球。

那浪费时间的讲座会，

耽误我们的体育节，真扫兴。

结果，我们连下课都没下，拿着那滑滑的篮球，开始打起来了。

[今天的她]

真的好忙，好忙。

又是同一句把我打败了，

“你以为我希望我自己酱忙啊？”

身为男友的我，

竟然不体谅她，

我真的太自私了。

三个字，

“对不起……”

明天不知要不要去学校。

真是“闲”啊~

2 Sept 2008

I went to school early in the morning. No one appears at the court until 7am, when GuoDung stepped into the court. Usually, the place where I gather are packed with people, but, today, it's just a few of us. Today, I finished All the Add Maths' Form 5 Chapter 2 exercise. It's so rare that I will take out a book and do it when I'm in the class. Not much teaching today, and yet just some exercises which are given by the teacher. We went home at 12.30 sharp because of Bulan Ramadhan ( hope the spelling isn't wrong). As usual, we walked towards the gate. We said goodbye and she went home while I go for my tuition classes.

We still got tiem to spare, so we decided to have our lunch at the Mamak. It has been a long time I didn't had my meal at Mamak.

I bought a notebook for her. Hope that she will study well with my small little notebook.

As usual, we went to Pasar Malam after tuition. But, the sky was dark and cloudy, and torrents of rain came down after we get into the car. It suited the atmosphere that was kinda sombre, sorrow, not like last time, full of laughter, jokes.

Again, I'm sorry for what I'd done to you.
And, I'm sorry for being emotional to her.

I thought, my tears gonna burst out of my eyes, but nothing comes out.
Cry is meaningless and useless. It wouldn't solve anything yet makes your eyes painful.
So, I apologized, faced it, and must not repeat the same mistake again.

Tomorrow, I ponteng school. Why? Because no one's gonna stay in the classroom due to a sudden test. I don't know why I'm not chosen. It should be a good thing because I can sleep late and wake up late tomorrow. It's 12am now, but my eyes and mind refuse to rest. Don't know why and don't wanna know. Fellow buddy, enjoy tomorrow. Hope the test will not bring you all down! Jia You!

Sowie

This post is specially written for HT.

[Sorry for the Ignorance. ]

[It's my fault.]

[But still, ]

[you are still a friend of mine. ]

[Sowie~~~~]

Don't angry so long, later will become old hastily.

1 Sep 2008

Today is the beginning of the September, when we sit for our trial exams. I havn't start to revise yet, just did a few add maths exercise during this 4-days holiday. Lol. I totally wasted my time. I went to two party, first is Kx's party, and second is Fs's Bro's wedding buffet. Y did I go to his buffet leh? The reason is simple. I '8'. Busybody. Haha. I was invited since last two weeks. I can't 'fong fei kei' de ma, so I decided to go to her party. Hmm, tomorrow, I must spend a few hours for revision, and study, if not, I surely will get red marks. Haha.

Gambateh le. Gambateh my fellow friends, gambateh myself, and gambateh to all who sit for the coming trial exam. Y[^^]Y