2009

An hour left to 2009. I'm not anticipating it, but I'm awaiting its arrival.

About 4 years of coupling, I still didn't celebrate new year with my beloved one. All I celebrate with is my friends. Not that I don't like to celebrate with my friends, just that, for example, KA and PW can celebrate new year every year, if not mistaken. Celebrating new year with your beloved is truly a romantic thing. I'm hoping for it very long time ago. Hmm...

But still, I will still welcome 2009!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Happy New YeaR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Complicated.

My old pal, complicated feelings are visiting me now, making me kinda greyish, down, and emo. Don't worry, it's not about love love thing, so you all won't get bored. ><

Me and my PiguPo are having a sweet life. No BIGgo PROBLEMo. Now, thinking of her, missing her and hope she's here to accompany me, comfort me. That's all for today. Btw, it's 2am now. o.O. She's cute in this pic. From the bottom of my heart. She's really adorable. >< Love you....
Muuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkssssssssssssss!~!~!



Bleh! ( If she saw this, she sure chop me into 18 gulung.)





Goodbye for 2008. Hello to 2009, a year which laid beyond expectation. New challenges, new adventures, new life, new level and a new me. I promised. ^^

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KAMPAI ICE!!! [29 Dec]

My first Kampai in my life. ><
More than one and a half shots of pure vodka. o.o
Now, i'm dizzy. @.@
Looks like I'm addicted to it. ^^



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Now I'm thinking of my cute, adorable, horny, little piggy po...
Muacks.. ><

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LAZY

Hear before sexy bum bum? Now I'm one of it. It's not sexy bum bum, but it's lazy bum bum. I still got many things to blog about, but I'm lazy to elaborate. O.o. 2008 is gonna end soon, but still, I havn't plan for 2009, I'm not ready for 2009. How? How? I seriously need a job now? Any vaccancy out there? If got, call me pls. I'm rusting here. Sien.

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24 Dec (CHrisTmaS EvE) Updated

I just back to kl at 2. My phone rang. A call from Kah Ming asking me to go out with them. They refers to Kah Ming, Kock Hwua and Kok Eng. They said they wanna go sing k, watch movie, go for countdown. I was like o.O, @.@. The day before today I was still at Cameron having NES Syndrome, which is Not Enough Sleep, should I go or should I just rest at home? Finally I decided to join them.

I just slept for 5 hours at the previous night. I don't know why I am so energetic and I still managed to go out like that. Am I Ironman? The answer is no. I'm sick now. Nasal fluid flowing out like tap water. Help me!

Back to the topic. I had my dinner at 6 and made for the lrt station at 6.30pm. The transit was not crowded. Had a smooth journey to Time Square.

After departing, I saw alot of seafood along the street. This society was changing. I hardly can accept these changes. Why must they make up and dress up exaggerately? I just don't understand. First time stepped into the night life of KL. It was unbearable, it was scary, it was unfamiliar to me. It's time for me to accept this kind of society.

Kok Hwua brought me to a restaurant called U-Village. The reason that he wanted to bring us there is because we can get free refill for certain drinks. The food is ok for me, but the service is not ok for me. For example, when you ask for refill, the waiter or waitress will ask you to wait. This circumstance happened a few times continuously until we get our refill.

After that, we went for window-shopping. I bought a belt, which its price is reasonable for me. We planned to countdown but we cancelled our thoughts. I hate this kind of event. Insecure, crowded, hot, noisy, these are the reasons why I hate it. So we went home around 10.30pm.

After departed, we walked and ran home. Lol. It was so dangerous but yet exciting. Strong awareness is a must if you all wanna try this kind of insane stuffs. ><><) Guess I should consume my medicine now and take a good sleep and wait for tomorrow genting trip. Gdnites.

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12-15 Dec (Dec Camp 08)

12 Dec

7pm, kids arriving one by one with their guidance of their parents. The traffic is not that worst like what we expect earlier. Traffic was smooth, carpark was sufficient, traffic problems were all ok. Voices from no where called my name and ask me to attend a sudden meeting. The authorities said, "Kids were more than what we had expected, what we had prepared, we have to take two of your team out and let them be facilitators." I was like o.O and I said," Oh, ok." ( I was calm that time for no reasons. O.o) Three more new members were added to my team. Luckily, they were quite friendly. If not, I'm dead meat.

Conclusion: The first day was quite a mess due to the some sudden changes, others were ok.

13 Dec

The first thing we woke up earlier in the morning is to prepare water for kids to brush their teeth. We brushed our teeth quickly and rushed to prepare some pails for the kids. I will skip the brushing part. Now, the bathing part. This part was really exciting and swt. -.-. We managed to divide the toilet into several partitions. Boys managed to cleanse their bodies and get to the eating hall in time, but for girls, they were kinda slow-mo, they needed to comb their hair, put some lotions on it, use a hairpin to pin their hairs. So, in conclusion, they were late. ><

Today, we discovered something. Sleeping beauty existed in our team. He is Yong Jian. From the moment you finished having your breakfast, until the moment you having dinner, he was still sleeping at a corner in a curl position, unchanged.

14 Dec

Basically, the progress on 14 Dec is simliar to 13 Dec, except the bathing section. I'm lazy to explained, so, if you are interested with it, please do ask me. ><

15 Dec

It's still the same like the day before. We cleaned the venue with the help of our "adorable" kids. Before the closing ceremony ended, all facilitators waved to the kids, and wishing they will not come back again. Haha. So funny.

Overall: I still can't find the feelings back. For me, it's just a beginning for me to seek for my past feelings. Thanks to whom who helped me, and thanks to whom who scolded me. Without you all, this camp will not ended perfectly though it's not ended perfectly. I hope, I can find my feelings back in the next coming camp. Full stop.

More pics will be uploaded soon.

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Shin Musha Gundam

Take a look at this Gundam!!

http://www.hlj.com/product/BAN953804

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17 Dec

7 days of hard battling, I'm finally home. Pics and progresses will be uploaded soon.

I break my record again. I slept till 1pm today. Claps.

LaoPo, I miss You... Huggie...

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4-8 Dec

4-7Dec

I went to Chen Zhan Ru Lai (CZRL) to do some voluntary work. It was something like opera, but related with religion. It was a fascinating show. It did teach us alot. I will upload the pics taken at Friendster. The link is provided at the side of my blog or by simply pressing the link below.

http://www.friendster.com/viewphotos.php?a=864298770&uid=22755689

Due to restriction of using phone and cam in the hall, I managed to take a few pics. Anyone who got CZRL pics, please send it to me. Thx.


8Dec

--庆功宴--

food food food.

The pics can be found at the link above.

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3 Dec

I went out to Mid Valley to celebrate Wai Ming's birthday. It's just an normal outing, but it was quite fun. Pei Yi fetched PengSiang and I there. Surprisingly, we were the first who reached there. We took some pics while waiting others arriving. We had our dinner at Kim Gary. We watched 007, Quantum of Solace. After movie, we lepak around. World of Jigsaw Puzzles, Room, XL shop and many more. Here are the pics taken on that day.

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27 Nov 12.40am

It's 12.40am now, and I'm still awake. Lol. Is EST important for me? Nah. Lol.

I'm not feeling sleepy maybe because of something is blocking the nerve that trasmits sleepy impulses. I got a new principle of love. Lol. Sounds weird, but it's true. When did I get this principle? Who knows.

Just wanna whine here instead of using the usual way. I found that I'm a sensitive guy. I'm easy to get jealous, I'm easy to be mad, I'm not understanding, I'm like a 17 years old guy with a kids' brain. I'm agreed with the statements stated in the Chinese Paper about love. I'm blur. I lost my direction again. Does love really exist in me? What is the meaning of love? Is it a suffer, or an enjoy? Till now, I still can't answer these questions. Am I truely in love with her? Nono, it should be is that love between us, or others? In other words, is this call love? I love you, these three words, si easy to say, but is it easy to do? Do we know the true meaning of I love you? Does eternal love exist? Does selfish love exist? Can I possess anyone of them? Can I possess both of them? Can I possess her? Can I own her? Can I live without her? Can I live without love? Does the happy ending of those fairy tales exist? I wonder a lot of things during the Chinese paper. These questions popped out automatically. Totally out of my control.

Feeling better after whining and blogging. Now, I should be sleeping on the bed. So, Nights all.

After today, we all gonna leave. Take good care of yourselves. Hope we meet again.

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26 November

Ello all. It's ending soon. Wakaka. What is ending soon? Our Form 5 life and SPM.
Happiness mixed with sadness. Everyone gonna pave their own ways for their better future. We might not meet again, but hopefully that I'm still able to split out your name when we meet one day. XD.


Asta la Vista.

Notice: New artwork will be updated soon. XD. If i got the mood.

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23 Nov

4 more days of hard work. Then we are set to be free.

But, after we get the freedom, will we still remember the days we have been together, fought together, played together? I hope so.

The end of SPM is the end of our form 5 life. Each person has their own path and their own dreams. 4 days later is the day we say goodbye to SPM, and our beloved friends. I wonder, after SPM, what can we do at home everyday? What can we do if there isn't any friends around us?

The future is blur. The future is unpredictable. Let us hope that our future aren't that bad.

Totally exhausted. Books are burying me alive. I gonna burn you after your lifespan come to a stop. WAkaka.

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Loves With Wings

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Words In Different Ways

Done this by using paint, including a little bit of Paint.net stylise. >< Simple yet messy.

Po,
For you de. Missing you. Words In Different Ways.



Edited: Done this with Adobe PS CS3. Lol. So long didn't use it, need to find out how to use it. -.-

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18 November

It has been a long time i didn't update my blog. I can't let my emo bloggy down like that. ><

Once again, I'm back with an emo mood. Guess what make me emo today? Guess correct will get a free kiss from me! Lol.

I wonder, why am I so obsessed with long hair? I had emo-ed for almost 5 hours, from 2pm till now, which is 7pm. Guess someone knows what am I emo-ing. Viewing my blog is like, watching dramas or series. Sometimes interesting, sometimes just bores you.

Let me begin my story. Everyone knows I love long hair, I think. Long hair, is something that is pretty only for girls. If for boys, I think you can imagine it.

The story ends. Guess what do I mention in this post. Then you can connect your guess to my emos. Well, it's so obvious. So, guess correct got reward.

5 more subjects to go. SPM takers, Gambateh~

Sob... T.T

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13 Nov 2008

After a long battle with SPM, I finally can get some rest. A 4 or 5 days rest. Exams till 4.30pm was really exhausting. There is still many 4.30s waiting for me. Lol. Today i played for the whole day, and tomorrow, I gonna start revising again. Hope that this fking-long-god-damn-sien exam will ended really soon. Just cant wait till the SPM finish. There are a god damn lot of things for me to do. Ciaoz.

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7 Nov

Currently playing T-one Maple Story during my free time.

Anyone who playing that server please add me. My IGN is HoTTemPeR.

Wish to see you all in there.

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SIck. ><

Good - Didn't sleep more than 0 hours two days ago. Headache twice in a week. I
think, I'm sick. ><

Bad - Finally, I finished paper 1 add maths within 1 hour, with answers provided,
but not workings.

Moderate - SPM approaching, dead end approaching, goodbye my love, Form 5.

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曾国辉-分手那一天

曾国辉-分手那一天
只为了太多的瞬间
只为了多看你一眼
回忆坐在我身边
笑我可怜
笑我别太过肤浅
你说你早没了感觉
你说这是无聊的诺言
你说执著那份永远
爱情让人错觉
就是一切
还记得分手那一天
你哭着说你需要空间
怎么拒绝你的改变
怎么能不妥协
你忘记了那些昨天
不许理会
是我一厢情愿
离开你的视线
不让你看见
反正你不会了解
而季节不断更迭
我看见恋爱盛开的时间
幸福有多远
终点到底该有多远

I would love to share this song with u all. This song is really a nice song. Put yr heart in while you are singing it. You will feel the taste. It's just too sad for me. I think of myself when I first saw this song's lyrics. Lol. Btw, do cherish people around you.

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A Nice Song.

爱太痛-吴克群

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
... 我不能睡 ...
我不能够 不能够不爱了

I predicted that if she and I are aparted, my predicted mood will just be the same like the lyrics.

"能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了..."

Is this statement true? I hope love doesn't need pain relievers.

I'm scare to figure it out, but I wanna know.

Any seniors out there can verify this statement?

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30 Oct

I think I 中暑 or I am fatigue. After playing basketball today, I felt unwell. Head was heavy, sweats all the time, the eyes are burning till now.

3 words to describe my situation.
HHT - Headache. Hot. Tired.

Equation of Long Hair:
Long Hair = Leng Lui + Attractive. XD

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29 Oct

Current mood: same as the song's lyrics, "你怎么舍得我难过".

I went to school today intentionally. I planned to revise with some our my friends over there. Surprisingly, there were still considered many of my classmate went to school. Studied add maths, chit-chat, and eat in the class. Awesome right? We seldom break the rules, but today we had broken the rules.

I saw JunYi at the BC Kasturi Seminar. She is still as tall as before. >< ( sorry for the ejek-ing ) I don't mean it. =]

Must study, must study..... Must not think of it, must not think of it.... Bang myself into the wall... Jk.

Stomach weirdo. Haha.

The hope in my heart shines brightly days ago, and now, it's dimmed.

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28 Oct

每次看古代片的结局，
都是同样的。
一定会有为爱付出的人，一定会有为爱而牺牲的人。
虽然一切都是演出来的，
都是假的，
为何我还会为了那一幕而感动到流泪？
或许，这叫做蠢吧。

Ever since when, I hate to study. Nono, it is not hatred, it's I don't have the study mood. ALthough SPM is approaching fast, others are burying their heads in the books right now, I still sitting in front of the computer desk, blogging. Lol.

I will try to force myself to study later. I mean FORCE, F=ma. Why Pyhsics' principle come out all of a sudden? Haha. I guess I'm crazy, I'm insane.

Here, I wanna share a photo which I was taken a few days ago.
I named it, "The Colourful Sky". Isn't it beautiful?

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25 Oct & 26 Oct Seminar Day 1 and Day 2

I needed to wake up early in the morning these two days. Why? I'm going for the Kasturi Seminar. This seminar is the finish boost for me before SPM. It was really tired to sit at there for approximately 4 hours a day. My buttock gonna be flatten soon.

Day 1
After the seminar had finished, CP n KY went to Time Square. Why do we go there? We were invited by her younger sister. My first impression towards her was, Wow, Why are you so small-built? Lol. If you see her through photos, she got long legs and kinda biggy head. I thought, she is kinda tall and hmm, you know. We expected she will give many negative critism, but, out of our expectation, she didn't say anything about me. Kinda surprising. Well, she brought one of her friends, a lad, which like KY very much. Lol. She got a small fans, and I got an adversary now. Sob. Day 1 isn't the happy day for me, kinda downed for the whole day. I'm numb. Lol.

Day 2
Just a normal weekend but I get to wake up early in the morning. Aww fuck! ><. Today was kinda moderate for me. Once I was going to give up, but now, I'm gaining back a little confidence. But, I will still stick to my own word. Once it's over, it's over. If things aren't better when school starts, adios amigo to us.

Today, she bought me a chocolate bar. Hmm, it has been a long time she didn't buy things for me, I mused. My mood is feeling better when I recieved that chocolate bar. Muacks.



Tomorrow is Deepavali. Any plans? Happy Deepavali to my Indian friends though I have a few of them. I thought I won't emo for a long time, but, I can't live without it just like I can't live without her. Emo is my life. My life is emo. Yay! Another statement from me.

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Doggy.

Filtered with CS3.
Doesn't look nice. =[
Long time didn't use CS3 d. Sob.

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勇气

今天，我又来讲故事了。

相信大家都有听过“勇气”这首歌吧？

以下就是那首歌的歌词。

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里 你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急 更害怕错过你

其实呢，我很认同它的歌词。
爱一个人真的需要勇气。
若你爱一个人，把你的一半的心放进去，付出一半，
你会觉得快乐吗？
你会觉得辛苦吗？

对我而言，
若要爱一个人，
就是要学会如何敢爱敢恨，
而不是学会把感情悬挂在空中, 半天吊。

或许，
你曾经心碎过，
不想让心再破碎多一次，
竟然如此，为何你还要自讨苦吃，接受这段感情？
要就爱，不要就不爱。
虽然，你有可能害怕会被伤害，
虽然，你可能面对很大的压力，
但，No Pain No Gain，
不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经深爱过。
爱，真的需要勇气。

谢谢！

No offense, and no idea what am I writing about. ><

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Stop emo-ing.
There's nothing for you to emo.

One must dare to love and dare to hate, not just love one or hate one for half. Hanging at the mid air will make you more suffering. After thinking for some time, I found out, this statement is correct. No elaboration, or explaination. Lol. Tired of explaining.

Life is not that easy or comfortable like what you think, what you want. Am I correct?

Yo, SPM almost approach, why are you not studying? Who gives it a fuck? Lol.

I must stop emo-ing and stop being that stubborn. ><

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22 Oct & 23 Oct (birthday wishes)

Happy Birthday to two of my friends,

Lim Poh Yi, and Wesley.

Wish you both all the best.

^^

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21 Oct

Tears running out of my eyes. Why am I crying? Am I frustrated? Am I giving too much hope? Am I contributing too much? Maybe yes, mayb not.

Tears stopped. Heart broken into pieces, scatterd on the floor.. It's just like Humpty Dumpty, I can't put them back together. Maybe this will make us feel better. I will miss you, I will still love you like what I did.

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20 Oct

Days after days, nights after nights, it's been quite a while I didn't see her. I wondered, why my heart isn't missing her at all. Fortunately, yesterday, I transferred the photos which were taken at MV last Friday. You know what? She's charming, cute. I can't move my sight out of her. I smiled. The missing feeling had finally came back to me. Another question pops out. Are we gonna end like this, in this situation? No. The answer is no. I won't let it ended like this. I must do something to 'rescue' this relationship. I didn't see her or manja her for days, even weeks. Days without her, is just like a garden without flowers. My mind is blanked, my heart feels empty. Completely empty.

When you love that person, you gonna make him or her happy. This is correct, but what if he or she hurts you always? Are you still gonna make him or her happy? When you are obsessed with her, you will do it, no matter how she treats you, how she appreciate it.

Getting emo isn't what I want. I can't control myself from getting emo. I just can't stop thinking when the darkness approaches. My heart was frozen solid, it is as fragile as glass. With a single touch, it will scatter. I just want to stop thinking of it. But how? I really can't figure it out.

I'm getting tired of studying. I hate to study those subjects which I don't like. I hate it. I mean it. Apparently, studying is a must-do task for a students, but this kind of student life isn't making me happy. Wake up at 6 early in the morning, take a short bath, then go to school. Teachers aren't conducting any lessons these few days. This is what I'm annoyed. Go to school unintentionally. What is school used for? It's a facility for student to study in it, but now, it's just like a playground. We hang out in the school and walking around to examine the cracks on the wall. Lol. Damn Sien.

Gdnites, all.

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17 Oct, Outing to MV. Pics.

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Random.

There is one sentence that I'm quite agree with it.

1.Love starts with smile, grows with a kiss and ends with tears. (extracted from friend's PM)

Love starts when a person fell in love. Both of them share their feelings, their thoughts together. After some times, they started to show some feeling towards each other. There's when love starts. When they saw each other, their hearts pumped vigorously. Sweet feelings came to their brain, and they both enjoyed the sweet feelings. Both of them are kinda shy when they both being together, especially when the moment they started to hold hands. I experienced it well. Haha. Thus, love starts with smile.

After some times, their relationship became firm and tight. Both of them sticked together like the Elephant Glue. They thought, there will be forever love. Their relationship had grown. They began to embrace each other, kiss each other, or even have sexual life. Love grows with a kiss.

But, after some times, they realised that their personalities didn't match well, problems existed. They argued. This caused the relationship to be loosen and might ended up breaking up. Both of them cried everyday after "combating". They might having cold wars too. After that, both of them realised that, it's time to end this torturing relationship. Thus, love ends with tears.

I don't know what am I typing. I just typed what I think, what I wanna to express. This is just some experiences which I encountered in my life. Some happen on me, some don't.

School starts 2moro. We gonna go to school for the god-damn-fucking-shit-lamo-boring PRA SPM test. What's the intention of having that "formal" test? I'm not sure. I just know, I hate to go to school if there's no lessons to be conducted. I prefer to stay at home and sleep until the sun sets. What can I do? I'm a student, and this is the student's life. Oh well, who cares? Do your best and just live on. Someday, somewhere, you will find your intention to live on.

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Reminisence.

My neighbour are having a BBQ party now. They are playign the guitar and singing together. I missed the old times, when we were chatting together, enjoy our time drinking, playing, singing, and so on. But now, everyone is preparing for the coming SPM. No one is free to held all these kind of parties, or gatherings. Really missed it. Damn. Lol. Perhaps everything will back to normal after SPM. Perhaps.

Still havn't full recover yet.

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17 Oct

决定……
我已作了决定。
不知是自私，还是帮到他我，

大家，都有少许的觉得，
或许没了她，我会比较开心，不会那么辛苦。
但，我不认同。
因为，我相信，有一天，我们一定会体谅大家，互相妥协。
但，最近真的有点累了，我真的很想做个霸王，做个暴君。

说真的，我每天，都为情而烦，大家都会问：“你不闲的咩？”
对我而言，爱情是排在第一的。
我一直都很想把朋友，把家庭，放在第一，
我曾经试过，
但最终还是战败了。

放下，我每天都说放下，
我真的放得下吗？
昨晚，与朋友谈天，
发现他所说的话，很有道理。
“说放下，当你看不到他的时候，当然可以放得下，
但，当你看到她的时候，放下这两个字，已消失的无影无踪了。”

为何，我感受不到任何感觉……
我真的变成木块了吗？我真的失去知觉了吗？
你能决定你要付出多少，但你却不能决定你要的回报的多少。
我一直都想，
她不够爱我吗？
为何我感觉不到他对我的爱，他对我的付出，他对我的体谅？
我好像一厢情愿。
我仿佛过着单身生活。
我再问自己，
他没付出吗？并不是。
他不爱我吗？也不是。
他没体谅我吗？也不是。

酱，为何，我还在埋怨？
为何，我不能知足？
为何，我一直觉得，我能做到他所需的东西，但他却不能？
为何？
我真的不想为这些芝麻绿豆的东西而烦……
但我的心，一直在想……不停地想……

我曾经问过自己，我是否是个好的男朋友？我是否适合拍拖？
我也曾经质疑她，是否是个好的女朋友？他是否适合拍拖吗？
答案，没有人懂得回答。

为何，我那么在意他？我那么在乎他？
因为我爱他？
但爱是这样的吗？
那爱是怎样的？
我不知道。

我……的心很复杂……
我……的心很痛……

（好久没那么情绪化了……感谢上帝赐给我这个机会……LOL）
（有东西问就问我吧，别去烦她。感谢你们的合作。）

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17 Oct

Today we went to school for our Physics' paper and Physics and EST PRA-SPM exam. It's based on the real format, but it isn't "real" enough, because 3 papers become 1. Other than these, we have no other intentions to go to school.

One can't change one. This statement is a fact, but why do I still fall for it? Why we must anticipate much? Why we must hope for something that will greatly dissappoint us at the end? Answer: This's life. Life, what is it by the way? I don't know how to answer it. Even my "counsellor" has gone mad. So, what's life? Live on to be emotional? Live on to be humilated or annoyed? Or even live on to be loved? Depends on how you think, what you think. I believed that one day, we will find the true answer. One day, really soon.

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14 Oct

最近看待事物的方法不同了，
或许是看开了，或许是在逃避，
我也不清楚。
每天都过着同样的日子，
每天都是同样的天气，
快令我透不过气来了。

昨天，与一位心地善良的人谈天，
谈起以前的事物，谈到现在的生活，
相比起来，
想起那种无忧无虑的生活，
想起那时天真及单纯的我，（呸！）
顿时间，想回到过去，
真快乐。

离考试越来越靠近了，
我的心依旧保持镇定的心，一点都不担心。
因为，我已厌倦了考试，厌倦了读书，
读埋那些我们不喜欢读的东西，
虽然不喜欢，但毕竟我们还是学生，无论如何都要读埋它。

感情方面，
无话可说，
也没东西埋怨，
以平常心看待，
就没事了。
学会不执著，不勉强他人。
我还是相信缘分，
有缘就在一起，没缘就分开。

现在快要中午了，
就要出发去补习了。
还有四天，补习就完了，
真开心！！！
但，与朋友相处的时间，就减少了。
在这三个月，庆幸有你们陪我去补习，
不然，我在家就要变成“活尸”了。

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14 Oct

Guess what I did in these few days? Bingox, I'm playing throughout the day. The weather was so hot, until my study mood vanished. I must pay a visit to those voodoos witches and ask them pray for the rain. Lol. I'm superstitious. Lame. I wonder, why my roof isn't transparent? I would love to view the star-full night when I'm laying on the bed before I felt asleep.

Everyone had just gone mad. Most of my friends become emo. Lol. Try to figure out who are them ba. Included me la. But, I don't wanna talk future about my emo.

Waiting for Jay's new album. Anticipating. Hope it will be released on date.

My last word before I offline, I Lub You. Bu! ><

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12 Oct

Days after days, nights after nights, my revision still remain at the same level. I'm still depending on my mood to study. No mood, no study, play. Ada mood, study, no play. As simple as abc. Just revised one of the Physics' topic, Light, but I still don't know what the hell is it talking about.

I think only a month left till SPM. So, take it easy, revise as much as you can, spend some time on relaxation, shopping, sleeping.

Got no topic to blog nowadays. Sien. Life is boring.

P/S: anywho who I didn't put in my blog mate list, please leave your blog's link at the cbox there. Thx.

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10/10 Happy Birthday to Dar.

Today is the "happiest' day in my life.
I wouldn't forget it.

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Trial's Results.

• Add Maths - 38 E
• EST - 81 A
• Sejarah - 61 B
• BM - 68 A
• Biology -60 B
• Chemistry - 58 B
• Physics -anticipating
• Moral - 63 B
• BI - 70 A
• BC - 67 A
• Maths -89 A
Total 508 4As. Sob!!!!
Average 63.5 B

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Dota 6.55

There are a hell lot of changes in this map. Lol.

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Koizora & 6 Oct

Koizora

I'm in tears for the third time after finishing the movie "Koizora". Aww... It's worth for the money. Altough at the beginning of the movie looks like a porn movie, which includes kinda lot of making love scene(not shown to us like porn la), laying on the bed, the guy kissed her, and the next scene skipped to next morning. Lol. Basically, the front part is kinda boring, and yet, horny(duh!), the rear part is getting interesting, and the ending, indeed, very touching. Can't imagine that I cried because of a movie. Lol. Believe me, who is sentimental should give it a try. It's really worthwhile to watch.

P/S:Chloe, if you wanna watch, just give me RM15, and I will buy for you, it's kinda far. Lol. No service charges included. See how good I treat you. =p

6 Oct

Today was the first day we went to school after Raya's holidays. It was totally a waste of time. All our anticipated subjects' teachers absent. We all like, "Oh F***. It's gonna be a F***ing sien day." As usual, we got some of our papers back. I wanna give my appreciation to the hardworking teachers for marking our papers hastily. Well, surprising, I scored well in BI paper, and I managed to score A2. Unexpectable. Guess blogging and tuition do help in my result. Pen. Moral paper's isn't that good. Average marks and 2 more marks to A2. So gek hei. Sien.

Joel, don't sad le. I'm here to console you. Hug for you. ><

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5 Oct

School reopens tomorrow. Yet, I still don't have the mood to study. The happiest thing in school is to meet my friends and my dardar. The saddest thing is we need to face the exam approaching, and those soxxx teacher. Lol. Guess, I'm influenced by HL. Gaga.

I'm sick. Fuck. I hate being a patient. Nothing I can do about intense sneezing early in the morning, and it ended up as a chronic disease. Aww.... Ha Chi!

I'm shy when I met Leng Lui, Lol. Leng Lui is those who has the potential to be my dream girl. Lol. I gonna miss both the Miss Greenies. ><

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Presents for her.

Cute Cute de Box.








Koizora!!!

Drew by me, using 2B pencil.








Coloured by me, using poster colour.

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3-4 Oct

I attended a wedding dinner in Tualang. It's located somewhere in Perak, a rural area, of course. It was my brother-in-law sister's wedding.

Karaoke. Swt.

Hmm, so many people. Lol.

Let's us welcome the bride and the bridegroom.

He Lian Zi. Apa tu? Btw, it's so appetising. Haha.

Nothing much to write about these two days. It's just an ordinary day. Signed off. Lol.

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1-2Oct

After 2 days staying at the 3rd Young Buddhist Gathering, I learnt a lot of things. I learnt to put things down. I learnt that what's is teamwork, I felt the warmth they all gave me.


I love you guys. Haha. Love the green shirt gal too. She looks like 15 but actually 20. She's kinda kawaii, I'm in love with her. Lol. Haha. Love MiaoMiao oso. She said she's introverted, but she makes me feel like she's not that kind of person. Lol.

An idea came into my mind when we gonna give our team a name, 我们，which means we. Then, other groups came out with some marvelous name. Then a sentence was made.
我们，（逗号）鸟人娘子爱戴罗家（ROJAK）眼镜。（句号）
The authorities was amazed by our cooperation and creativity. Lol.

At night, there was an activity, which involved birthday celebration and heart sharing. That day, a candle was provided to us. That activity should be touching, because other than our group, all were crying, emo-ing, sharing their heart. 'Our' group, guess what were we doing? We were playing with the wax!! Lol. We shared our heart happily, without a tear, and full of laughters. I missed that moment. I really hope that, I can be naive all the time, and the world wouldn't be that complicated. Do our best

Basically, we enjoyed our 2 days gathering, it was a rare occasion to have that many buddhist association gather in a hall. Although we don't know each other, we managed to cooperate like a team, like a company. Most of my friends said that, I'm even happier than before. I don't know why, but it was truth. Although my gay friend, SR wasn't with me that time, I still manage to find another gay friends, and girls' friends. Haha. After all, I shouldn't be that stubborn. I shouldn't ruin my life. I should appreciate it. But still, I refused to study!!!!! Kang Yi!!!! Lol.

Pics will be uploaded soon. Patience please. Fasten your selt belt. -.-''' Wait and see how's my green shirt girl looks like. Haha. ><

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29 September 2008

.Memories.

Today we went to Time Square to celebrate her birthday. At first we planned to go Cosmo World, but when we reached there, it stated that 12pm only operate. So, we go sing k lo. It was the first time I sing k with my gf, and some songs suit my voice. Wakaka. Satisfied after hearing my voice so nice.

10.30am- we reached TS.

11.00am- we went to Borders and started to read. Lol. After that, we decided to sing k, though I don't like to.

12.00pm- we had our dinner at Tong Lo Wan Restaurant. ( I belanja o.) She gave me a gift which she bought it at Genting Highlands. Kawaii nya.

Kawaii-nya....

Do we look cute? Haha.

1.00pm- We spent our time taking the Big Head Sticker photo. Our first time too. Haha. Although it was quite expensive (rm26), Kisiao, it was worthwhile. She cant keep these photos, so what for we took it for? Hmm. Nvm.

2.00pm-5.00pm- We had a great time in the karaoke box. We sang like mad. She sang "She Bu De" by Shun Zi, and guess what? I cried. Seriously, I cried. Why I cry? Refers to lyrics ba.

5.00pm-6.30pm- Sent her back. Thought a lot of things. Maybe this outing is our last time, because, I lost my confidence. Story ends.

T.T

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29Sept2008

Maybe she's right, thank you for waking me up.

I shouldn't put in too much expectation, or expect too much, we are taking SPM.

Maybe we will end very soon after SPM, or just be happily ever after.

I will not obssess anymore. I will not stubborn anymore.

I will learn to control my heart, not too fall too deep or get out of it.

I love you, yet don't love you.

Watching the clock, 11.59pm slowly approaching 12.00am,

the feeling is so nice. Just give me a new name, Emogeezmo. Lol. Suits the current me.

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27 Sept

She went to Genting.

Hope she's enjoying her trip.

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27 Sept

Today we went out with sc4 gang. We had a wondeful time over there, at MV. Hanging out with friends, is sure a pleasant thing to do. Window shopping without worries, without thinking of others thing. Just that their dada sempit oni. XD. Don't hit me wo.

今天，不知为何，和她有点距离感。因该是一个星期不能见到她吧。
她，矛盾，她，情绪化。
我，不加以理会，我，觉得，有些话，不能随便说。
说了出口，就收不回，严重的插进一个人的心。
那人的心，闷着闷着，有东西说，却说不出口。
想念一个人，原来需要那么多力气的。
现在，我，有点累了。
我们开始谈谈心里话，这或许是一个好的开始吧。
矛盾的我们，不知，下一步会做什么。。。

只希望，我不会失去恋爱的信心。。。
只希望，这段感情不会因矛盾而变质，恶化，最后枯萎。。。

我真的真的真的。。。很想念她。。。


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27 Sept

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26 Sept

Trial finished.

Don't know what happen.

Maybe she does mind.

But what can I do?

Just hope everything will return to normal.

Time to be hardworking.



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22 Sept

Nothing to blog about. These few days punya exams spoilt my mood, and makes me numb. Now, I just simply think and 'fat ngau dau'. I really don't like to study the subject that I don't like. But I know it's in the must-do list, and the SPM is approaching really fast. Sometimes I think, when will all this fucking school life ends. Got the brain to study, but not the interest to study. WTF. Scold me if you all want, because, I also don't know what to do now.




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Jay New Song

Jay New Song (Dao Xiang) so nice. Sui!!!

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下雨天（Best Song Ever)

歌曲：下雨天
歌手：南拳妈妈
专辑：南搞小孩
作曲：张杰
作词：张杰

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

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21 September

12.46am.
Ha..Ha..

20 Sept 2008

Being in the house for so long is making me emotional.
Staying up late during exams is making me exhausted.
Didn't exercise for two weeks is making me numb.
I guess, this's my life. Tuition, exams, and computer-ing.
I guess, this will lead me to an end very soon.
I guess, I'm emotional.
I guess, I seriously need to take a break from city-life.
I just wonder when can I get that chance to go for brisk-walking or jungle-trekking.
I miss the old days when we are not proceeding aimlessly.
I miss the old days which brings me good memories.
I miss the one who had been scolded by me yesterday.
I'm lazy.
I'm fucked off.
I'm lost in my life.
I'm just in close contact with lonely.
Gdnites and welcome a new bored day.

Signed off at 12.20am, waiting for her reply but I think the phone wouldn't rang.

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18 September

Today we sat for our history paper. It's tough and confusing. If the tips do not exist, I think, I will just fill in my name and class, and just drop my head onto the table and sleep like a lazy pig.

Walala, I think, I won't archieve well in history without tips. But, SPM has no tips. So, from now on, we gotta start studying before it's too late.

Today, we went to tuition as usual. Don't know why, I want to eat Spicy Yee Mee. So, we went to eat Yee Mee. Yay! While we were eating, an unexpected downpour came tremendously. Our food court has been flooded! Lol.

For the very first time, I scolded her. This is her first time being scolded by bf. Lol. Quite a high volume. She cried. Felt guilty yet happy. I don't know how to explain, and I don't want to explain. But, I guess, after tonight, we will be much more happier.

2moro is Est paper, yet, I still havn't sleep. I guess tomorrow I'm sure I wouldn't have enough energy to sit for the exam. Gambateh. Given in to the exams. Sigh.

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16 September

已考了好多天的试，考到我厌倦了，放弃了。

今天考的是，‘多块鱼’的数学。

说真的，我有点不明白，

为何，普通数学，与‘多块鱼’的数学差别那么大。

它已经吸完我的脑汁了。

我觉得，其他人也有同样的遭遇。

跟她单独相处的时候真开心。

虽然才过了那么1天又6个小时，

但我们想念对方想到要死了。

从昨天起，我们二人都渐渐珍惜单独相处的时候了。

日后，希望我们还有机会那么愉快的单独相处。

明天真是道德教育试卷。

我在努力的背那些Nilai，

你们也一样吧？

我们大家一起加油加油啊！

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15 Sept.

It is the second time she went to my home alone. Although the time we spent isn't that much, we do appreciate it. It's sweet. It's memorable. We do enjoy this intimate moment very much.

We watched wall.e. It's really a nice show. Taught us a lot of thing. When we are in love, nothing can separate us. If we rely too much on technology, we will be like those fatty bumbum, sitting on that mobile chair, just let the computer do all the rest. We must protect our mother earth, if not, our planet will just be a place that full of rubbish, and living things wouldn't survive on it. I can't concentrate much on the movie, because, you know la, Haha. This is our third time without others disturbing, only she and I. I wonder, when is the fourth time.

Being with her makes me feel comfortable, secure. I just don't understand, why someone wouldn't appreciate her. But guess, after a big round, everything back to square one. She and I will stay together till our fate ended.

...I Love You, Balon...

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13 Sept 11.45pm.

Current mood:

Dulan. Sien.

What's the point of promising people?

I don't get it.

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13 September.

I don't have mood to study at all. Don't know why, maybe it's the environment that isn't suitable to study. My room, is fking hot. I just don't understand, the weather changes drastically. Everyday hearing "Xia Yu Tian", I hope that it will rain soon enough, but the sky has answered me, "Xia Ni Pi Gu Yu". I can't stand the hot weather anymore. I can't study under such condition. It's making me sweating. Anyone who wanna go sauna can come to my house for a free sauna treatment. Time : 4pm-7pm. Anyone who interested can give me a call.

I'm totally not in the mood to study, sleep, eat, bathe, and even play. I wished I could switch on the air-cond. But, due to the expensiveness of the electricity, I decided not to switch it on.

It has been quite a while I didn't see her. I wonder, how do she looks like now. Although I'm trying hard to battle the loneliness, still, I lost. It's freaking awful to stay in house. There's nothing I can do, friends in my contact list didn't appear online. I wonder where they are. Some having tuition classes, some stay home studying, mostly all of them are busy handling the trial exams. Why am I not concern about trials? Why am I not aware of its outcome? Maybe, I faded up of exam. It's just like "so what?". Hais, I miss the old time, I miss the holidays.

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Numb

I'm numb.

No feeling at all.

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12 Sept

Finally, first week of battling had passed.

I can only describe my situation just by one word.

"SHIT."

I wonder, how I gonna pass my exam.

All the best to myself and teachers who mark them.

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10 Sept

[Should I complain, or just accept it?]

[Be your own self, or suits my flavour?]

[It's so hard to decide.]

[I'm.... still ok... with it..]

Today's bc paper, isn't that hard. I still managed to finish it, and still got spare time for me to take a nap. Haha. Again, Shurong skip the tuition class again. What's he up to? Hmm, I think, the reason should be girls! Lol. Nothing interest happened today, and yet, I don't know why am I so emotional this few days. Loves to think alot. I mean, ALOT. Well, lonely gets well with me nowadays. Haha.

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9 September

Tomorrow is the first day of trial.
I'm not well-prepared,
so I dare not to wish for good results.
But, I'll try my best to score well.

Po ar,
remember don't get up at 3am and study o,
this is bad for your health de o..
If you are scare, just call me,
I will sayang you until you forget the pressure..
Miss you..

Friends,
don't study until 2 or 3am,
it's bad for yourselves too.

All the best.

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TOC

My school organized a trip to The Otomotif College(TOC). Although it isn't a renowned college, and doesn't have degree courses, it's still a nice place to study. Quite nice environment. It was funny today. A undergraduate walked towards ka and I."This place sucks man," he told ka. It's kinda absurd that a person pass by and told him the place he is studying sucks. O.o. I'm interested in studying the Audio course. It's a part time course, so maybe I will consider of studying it in my future.

[Off topic: I slept at 12.30am yesterday. When I woke up this morning, I'm totally blur. Took a bath quickly and went to school. Today doesn't like to talk much, and sweat alot. After the BC extra class, I'm totally in EMO state, felt so empty, so lonely. Lonely, this word, has become my friend. I don't hate it anymore, but I don't love it too. Maybe, a lonely person, is just a numb person, who doesn't have feelings, emotional, guess, this person, sounds like me nowadays. ]



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Hearts.

This is the Choc Heart specially made for her.

This is the surprise I gonna give her tomorrow.

Hope she will love it.

This heart represents my heart,

Eternal sweetness just for you.

I love You....

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7 Sept

Today was incredibly excited.

Don't know why.

We just end our conversation happily.

We both miss our beloved very much.

I miss her, she miss me.

Haha.

Trial gonna start soon,

and yet,

I didn't prepare well.

So,

I wouldn't anticipate much of my results.

Life still goes on with shit result.

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6 Sept. 11.25pm.

It's raining the whole day.
It's so cold and the temperature remains at 20 to 22 degrees celcius.
Rain makes me think alot.
Makes me emo.
I wonder, when can I lay on the grassland, and watching the stars in the sky.
That should be a pleasant thing to do.
Missing someone intensely will make a person numb.
I'm the person.

She's different today.

Full of fear, misery.

Everyone has a haunted experiences.

Neither do she.

That's freaking her out.

All I can do, is stand aside, hope that she's alright.

What can I do?

Useless me.

Still, I regard it seriously.

Why can't I just pretend that what I also don't know?

Why?

It's hard to let go.

It's really hard.

[结论:我太重视她了。]

My English still sucks. Sigh.

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6 Sept

一个人，

独自在房里，

听着正在播出的歌，

静静的，无时无刻的，

在想念你。

已经好久没和你见面了。

我的心，依然还是你的。

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I Miss You

[ It's drizzling out there, ]

[and drizzle makes me miss you...]

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Untitled.

Today we thought teacher will come in to conduct at least one lesson. Ya, we got it right, but the teacher who come in isn't the one we want, indeed, the teacher who we wanted her to conduct a lesson didn't come to school. We got fad up and most of us planned to skip the school next week.

As usual, we studied together. The only way that I can revise in school is the moment she sat beside me. That time, I only can concentrate on my revision. This's a way to encourage me to revise in school. Maybe this is the only way.

Seems that many people lost their direction. CW is one of them. Love is a scary yet lovely monster. It will make you insane or it will make you as tame as a rabbit. Carrot! Lol.

Me? I like back to square one. Nowadays, I felt that I rode a time machine and went back to the past. My mind, lifestyle, and others seem to revert to the past. Untalkative, quiet. Sit in front of the computer desk,watching the immobile LCD screen. I wonder, when can I take a break, and go for vacation. I prefer nature. Nature harmonises my heart, calm my mind.

[X.X] out of idea. Signing out. [X.X]

Still Lov[依然爱着你]ing You

九月

[九月的我]

仿佛是另一个人。

生活上都出现了很多问题。

最近的我，话题少了，活力也少了。

我仿佛回到过去，这几天的我，真的好像以前的我。

我一向都不戴面具，不伪装。

不知为何，那面具自己戴在我脸上了。

最近的我，好像独来独往，

不大喜欢参与。

[九月的学校]

对我而言，是一个陌生的地方。

从前热爱教书的老师，

现在已不懂飞到哪儿去了。

去学校，

好像在浪费时间，折磨自己。

今天，

我们整班男生竟然逃课。

为何？

正因篮球。

那浪费时间的讲座会，

耽误我们的体育节，真扫兴。

结果，我们连下课都没下，拿着那滑滑的篮球，开始打起来了。

[今天的她]

真的好忙，好忙。

又是同一句把我打败了，

“你以为我希望我自己酱忙啊？”

身为男友的我，

竟然不体谅她，

我真的太自私了。

三个字，

“对不起……”

明天不知要不要去学校。

真是“闲”啊~

2 Sept 2008

I went to school early in the morning. No one appears at the court until 7am, when GuoDung stepped into the court. Usually, the place where I gather are packed with people, but, today, it's just a few of us. Today, I finished All the Add Maths' Form 5 Chapter 2 exercise. It's so rare that I will take out a book and do it when I'm in the class. Not much teaching today, and yet just some exercises which are given by the teacher. We went home at 12.30 sharp because of Bulan Ramadhan ( hope the spelling isn't wrong). As usual, we walked towards the gate. We said goodbye and she went home while I go for my tuition classes.

We still got tiem to spare, so we decided to have our lunch at the Mamak. It has been a long time I didn't had my meal at Mamak.

I bought a notebook for her. Hope that she will study well with my small little notebook.

As usual, we went to Pasar Malam after tuition. But, the sky was dark and cloudy, and torrents of rain came down after we get into the car. It suited the atmosphere that was kinda sombre, sorrow, not like last time, full of laughter, jokes.

Again, I'm sorry for what I'd done to you.
And, I'm sorry for being emotional to her.

I thought, my tears gonna burst out of my eyes, but nothing comes out.
Cry is meaningless and useless. It wouldn't solve anything yet makes your eyes painful.
So, I apologized, faced it, and must not repeat the same mistake again.

Tomorrow, I ponteng school. Why? Because no one's gonna stay in the classroom due to a sudden test. I don't know why I'm not chosen. It should be a good thing because I can sleep late and wake up late tomorrow. It's 12am now, but my eyes and mind refuse to rest. Don't know why and don't wanna know. Fellow buddy, enjoy tomorrow. Hope the test will not bring you all down! Jia You!

Sowie

This post is specially written for HT.

[Sorry for the Ignorance. ]

[It's my fault.]

[But still, ]

[you are still a friend of mine. ]

[Sowie~~~~]

Don't angry so long, later will become old hastily.

1 Sep 2008

Today is the beginning of the September, when we sit for our trial exams. I havn't start to revise yet, just did a few add maths exercise during this 4-days holiday. Lol. I totally wasted my time. I went to two party, first is Kx's party, and second is Fs's Bro's wedding buffet. Y did I go to his buffet leh? The reason is simple. I '8'. Busybody. Haha. I was invited since last two weeks. I can't 'fong fei kei' de ma, so I decided to go to her party. Hmm, tomorrow, I must spend a few hours for revision, and study, if not, I surely will get red marks. Haha.

Gambateh le. Gambateh my fellow friends, gambateh myself, and gambateh to all who sit for the coming trial exam. Y[^^]Y

30 August

Today we celebrate kx's birthday party at her house. It's a rare party that involves both 5sc2 and 5sc4. It was such a memorable day. It's exciting and full of joy. I'm not going to write a lot of it, so, I will post some of the pictures taken during her party. Enjoy~

Q & A

1.Did I change alot these few months?
2.What improvement should I do?

Positive and negative critism and feedback are welcomed

27 August.

Nowadays, go to school is just meaningless. It's a waste of time. Teachers seem "busy" and did not enter our class. What for do we go to school if those teachers don't enter our class and conduct a lesson?

I go to school for two main reason, the former is obvious, for my darling, the latter is friends. Tomorrow, she's not going to school. I'm sure I'll miss her a lot....

Today, most of the "8 Po" gang members didn't come. They wouldn't come to school if there's special occasion or there's nothing to do at all. Today should be the first time for joining Wai Pooi's gang group chat since Jan. Lol. They are very lame, extremely "wu liao". Haha, it's my honour to meet such "retarded" girls. Haha.

Later, I think I will do some Add Maths practice. It rains for the whole day. Now still havn't stop yet. I wonder, how long will this rain takes? Rain was good when it's small, but when rain is heavy, that's where nightmare starts.

26 August

Still can't find the study mood.
Still don't have the determination to open a book and study.
Sigh.

Untitled.

~[.Helpless when she smiles.]~

~[.She's so adorable and attractive.]~

~[.Muacks.]~

24 August

My heart is still in holiday mood..
I hoped that... Holiday doesn't end that fast...
Can wake up late.. Can sleep late...
I gonna miss u, holiday...
Goodbye, holiday, and I will meet u soon...
Sad..

Doesn't feel well....

24 August

Today,
was the last day for this 1 week school holiday,
the closing ceremony for the Olympics,
the last day, for us to be that sweet...

Tomorrow,
will be the starting of the war towards the goal,
will be the starting of school life,
will be the starting of my new life,
will be the starting of treating me like nobody.

Hope,
everything runs smoothly,
everything goes like what I hope,
the things that I hate, that I don't want it to happen, will not come that fast.

Let's say goodbye to Holidays, and hello to School...
Darn.. I gonna miss this holiday...

23 August

I woke up early in the morning for the Undang Test. At first, I thought it was tough, due to my experience, I scared Rabun Warna section will be coming out again. Instead of Rabun Warna, Alphabet Test came out. It's really funny. A white square, with a 'K' in it. It's totally black and white. Blind also can see. Lol. I passed it easily. Lol. After that, the 50 questions section. My hand was sweating spontaneously. I finished it in several minutes. When I get my result, WOW! IT's 47/50! Unbelievable! I passed my Undang and now I can keep Undang aside now.

After that, we went Summit USJ for movie. We bought 5 tickets of 'Death Race'. It's 18SG. We never thought of that. There were three old-looking guys among us, including me and shurong, while the other two looks immature. NgekNgek. We passed the checking counter easily. Both the guys who looks immature, took a deep breathe and walked through the counter. Fortunately, the staff let them pass. I discovered the handle in THX hall can be lifted! It's suitable for couples who don't want to waste more money on buying twin seats. I personally encourage couples to watch movie in Summit USJ, GSC THX Hall. About other halls, I don't know whether the handle can be lifted or not. So take your own risk! Haha.

After the movie, Han Ting dropped us at Carrefour. Shurong and I paced to APT for hair cutting. We both have fate to meet our previous barber. Haha. They both are junior. The one who's ordered to cut my hair is quite adorable and chubby. She's kinda friendly and gentle, too bad, she's older than me. Aiyaya. Haha. Her skill is not bad, can tahan. Next time, for sure I will find her to cut my hair. Anyone who wants to cut their hair at APT, please tell me. I got a chop collector card. Collect the chop for me.

P/S: ChiaWen, keep your hair until it's long. You look prettier with long hair. Maybe you need to trim it.

P/S:T-1Day till the Holiday ends. Pray that we won't tortured by teachers and homework.

P/S:Hope she's still the same after the holiday. I gonna miss the current her. I scare of losing the current her. Some should know what I mean.

P/S:I finally bought a feather pillow! Yippie. Lol

That's all for today. Goodnight everyone.

22 August 2008

9.09 Early in the morning.

The bright ray penetrated the windows, waking me up early in the morning(sounds weird). I don't know what should I do now, study or relax? I had been in a relax state for almost 2 months. I didn't study at all, and I just relies on the tuition classes. I don't have strong determination and will to study. Whenever I saw books or homeworks, I was hynoptized. Lol. Everyone was worrying their trials, but I'm sitting at here, watching the 17' LCD screen, blogging. Why am I not worry about my future? Hmm.. I still havn't find out yet.

Still got 3 days left till school holiday ends. School starts, war engaged. Everyone will be busy like hell, including her. During this school break, she treats me well. I love this kind of treatment, but I think, it's gonna end when school starts. I really do appreciate the time with her during holiday. It's totally different. I shouldn't complain too much. She's changing, and I should do some changes also. I should treat her as my queen under any circumstance.

P/S: Readers might be blurred after you view my blog. I think, only myself know what I'm writing. Any enquires, please ask me through msn: i_lovewho1314@hotmail.com or sms me through 0162736363. (sounds like I'm promoting myself. Lol)

20 August 2008

...20August 2008...

---Just Back From Penang---

---Time Square---

---Outing with Her and Frens---

---Gasoline---

---The Mummy 3---

---First Time---

---Memorable Day---

---She loves me More---

---I love her More---

---TKA Fong Fei Kei---

---Argue a Lil---

---Face Dark Dark---

---Apologize---

---Sweet Back---

---Will not Argue Next Time---

---Appreciate---

---GoodNighT---

多天的失踪

时间过得真快，

不知不觉已八月了。

拜一，我随瀚霆到槟城去公干。

不错嘛，能吃能喝，也有钱收，哈哈。

昨晚2点多才能睡，真是累死人了。

爱，其实是什么呢？

它，令我失去理智，令我失去方向。

它，令我觉得幸福，令我觉得开心。

它，令我体会了很多东西。

今天的我，

发现，你的初恋，是决定你下次谈恋爱的态度，想法，要求。

我，有时不明白，为何我拥有了她，却一直在抱怨，

我，有时不明白，为何我拥有了她，却一直不满足。

我已累了，

我决定了，

是时候该放下了，

我不会太重视，也不会太敷衍。

无论她怎样看待我，在我心中，她就是我女朋友，昨天是，今天是，明天也是。

找一天，

我一定要找一个人，

来刮醒我。

别太大力哦。

〉~~~〈